Contains Suicide - busy busy head

[che che]

hi , just wanted to get a few words down , im so down at moment getting tired trying to cope with it .... my head is driving me crazy i cant sleep / constantly feel sick ,, ive had a few cuts and scratched my self untill i bleed but i have this feeling in my stomach that makes me wanner go further i have plenty of strong pills to try this with and when i think about how/ where i would do it i feel so calm its scaring me ,,, ive just had enough with all the pain mentally and physically i feel exhausted ,, i dont want to die just be alone with my god dam crazy head and block it all out for a while. my brain never stops, its buzzing in there it feels like a busy packed room people are running everywhere and there is no room left and the 5 people who hurt me are in there just laughing at me and its them i wanna get rid of ,, i feel like i could cut my head open and just take them out that would be lovely he he

[roiben]

It sounds like you are struggling a lot at the moment. I will say that taking the pills will not at all help with that, it will just make you feel worse on top of what you are already feeling.

Instead, I think it would be wise to seek out some help for how you are feeling. Do you have a Dr or Psych you can talk to and let know what is going on for you and the thoughts you are having right now.

Do you have anyone you trust that you could give the pills to, or do you think you could get rid of them, so that there is less temptation there to use them?

I understand the sense of calmness that comes with thinking of a plan like this - But that is only there as it is seeing it as a way out. There are other, better ways out though. Please keep reaching out for help, and keep talking to us here.

Be gentle with yourself.

Roiben x