Contains Suicide - my mum

[minnie]

my mum died 9 years ago .....its my mums birthday today she would of been 65 today....i laid flowers at the crem...and took balloons and a card...i just wish she was here in real life to celebrate...she died of an asthma attack and i couldnt bring her back to life...which kills me everyday thinking about it

i am so suicidal at this minute...i had plans to end my life on my mums birthday but thought it would be selfish of me for my family if i did that but i wish i had now as i dont care anymore whether i live or die as i want to be with my mum

[dollpart]

*huge, huge hug*

[~Grace~]

Im so sorry....sending love and hugs xxx

[amy-meow]

your mum would be proud of you choosing to stick around and make the most of your life despite the situation. i take my hat off to you, you're very strong <3

[minnie]

3 days have passed since my mums birthday...am so suicidal i want to be with her

the home treatment team are seeing me everyday because of this....one of the htt nurses said that i dont hear voices they are my own thoughts!!!!
but i dont want to kill anyone its the voice 'hannah' that tells me to hurt people especially the spies,....she demands that i take an od if i dont and its killing me...i already took an od last week on mums birthday in the night time but didnt seek help as i was violently sick all night, i wouldnt take an od if i didnt have 'hannah' talling me to do it with 'god' egging her on


thanks for your replies and hugs xxxxhugsxxxx