scared/nervous...

tamobhuuta · 27-08-2011, 08:08 PM

because i'm finally feeling like there IS a problem, that the new medication IS helping, but i might have to stop taking it if the blood tests don't come back ok. i don't want that, to go back to a reality where everyone is against me, where the only way out is death. i wan't to get better.

please any words of reassurance or setting me straight, i would be very grateful, i'm twisting myself in knots worrying about the bloods coming back next week.

Steel Maiden · 28-08-2011, 10:59 AM

Are you on clozapine?

I am quite sure that only 1-3% of people taking clozapine can develop proper agranulocytosis while they are being treated. Usually if your white blood cells drop to a borderline low level, they just observe you more closely and do more frequent blood tests until everything's alright.

I hope that you'll be ok.

RhapsodyInBlue · 28-08-2011, 12:33 PM

Good luck! I hope everything works out okay! It's very unlikely you'll have to come off your meds so try not to worry too much :) x

tamobhuuta · 28-08-2011, 03:22 PM

thanks both.

yeah, i'm on clozapine. i'm worried because my monday blood test was a bit low, so i had to have another one on friday, which i'm really hoping will be ok again. i am hating not knowing whether the friday's were ok or not.

makedamnsure · 28-08-2011, 03:50 PM

Good luck, I'm glad you've found meds that help, and I hope you are allowed to stay on them.

Even if not, there will be other meds you can try.

Best of luck.

RhapsodyInBlue · 28-08-2011, 08:37 PM

Let us know when you get your results! Remember there's always other meds you can try!

Good luck, & take care x

tamobhuuta · 28-08-2011, 09:24 PM

thanks. i keep losing hope - in myself, in the world. it's good to be reminded there are other ways out.

roiben · 29-08-2011, 03:32 PM

I am so glad you have found a medication that works for you. It is good that they are keeping an eye on your bloods, but do try not to worry too much.

Even if the clozapine is causing a problem with your bloods, it could be that they will adjust the dose, or that they now know what type of medicine works for you and there are alternatives available along the same line. As others have said, it is rare for it to be a big issue, so most likely they will just monitor you for a while.

*safe hugs*

Roiben x

tamobhuuta · 30-08-2011, 08:18 PM

thank you everyone for the support. i needed reminding that there were options even if this didn't turn out ok. but luckily for me friday's bloods came back ok so all is well. thanks again guys *big thank you hugs*

xbeckyx · 30-08-2011, 08:30 PM

Glad the results casme back okay hun.