Contains abuse - feels like im on the verge!!

[born to die!!]

i cnt do this anymore, im fed up of being alone all the time, i end up crying myself to sleep nearli every night thinking bout my ex partner.
Lately ive been self harming most nights, some worse than others .
i had a reli bad night last nigth, ive been trying to get rid of a reli bad scar on my forearm, (my ex gf's name) because i cnt move on, so ive been trying to cut over it, i cnt stop.
Tonight on my way back from work as i was driving back i just got this sudden urge that i wanted to end it, this probly sounds crazy but i was doing 60mph and turned my main beams off down a country road, i dnt know how im still hear tbh. Is this reli bad ?

im losing it
Michael

[SweetEscape]

oh hon that's not a good sign do you have anyone to can talk to about the urges you've been having *hugs* PM me if you need to.

[PassedExpectations]

how are you doing today?

it sounds like you're having a tough time, and putting yourself in serious danger..... i'll finish this reply after school

ok, sorry it took so long, got tied up until now

right.... are you getting out and interacting with people? keeping yourself busy and involved will probably help you keep your mind off your ex because you'll have new things to think about and new people to get to know.

can you let someone know about how you're feeling? maybe they can help keep you safe, or just be there when you need someone to lean on.

please don't cut over previous injuries. its really really not a good habit to get into, and you can end up with some pretty bad damage. maybe could you write on yourself instead (not getting ink in the cuts).... though im thinking that reminding yourself about your ex all the time is probably a bad idea, it will probably only serve to keep you stuck where you're at and feeling down.