alone and triggered

[Broken Neko]

I'm triggered.. and split.. I want to tell my two friends who know I SI and will support me, but at the same time I don't want to be a bother or make them worry.. and that's making me separate from them, making me be alone, which makes me want to cut even more.

I don't know what to do anymore.. Sometimes I wish I just had the courage to end it all, but I know I never will.

I just want to lock myself in the bathroom and cut, but I also want to cry out for help, but I don't want to make others worry.. I'm not worth anyone's time anyway..

sorry for rambling.. I don't expect any responses, but I just didn't know what else to do.

[marandalovely]

Okay, hun. Look. I know it hurts. Trust me. You think it was easy for me to stop? It's been one month, and i'm in tears thinking about it. I thought I couldn't do it.
I was gashing and burning myself every hour. There's no way I can wear shorts in public.
I will always be here for you,
Marandalovely.tumblr.com
:)

[Allythisisme]

I know exactly how you feel, i have a housemate that knows everything and yet its still so hard to open up at times.
I should probably be taking my own advice but i find the best way to get out of a downwards spiral is to go and ask my housemate to distract me, just watch a film or play cards. nothing ott, something low key but its enough to keep me from cutting even when i really want to. sometimes you dont have to talk, just having someone in the room with you, having someone there can be enough for a short term distraction.

[PassedExpectations]

its likely that people are a bit worried, or very worried, already, and just don't know how to approach it with you, or don't know whether to say anything or not. and good friends won't want you to be suffering on your own, they'd probably want to know what was going on so that they can support you through it.