I feel soo bad. May be triggering.

[Smiling for the World]

A couple weeks ago two of my friends found out that I cut/burn on my hip. They saw while I was changing for gym but I didn't really care because they are two of my closest friends. Later I found out that both of them also cut, which I kind of suspected. We all agreed to not cut anymore. I tried soo hard not to do it again but I broke down the other day, and did it. Anyway, my friend found out about it and started crying pretty bad and she just broke down. I feel terrible for what i put my friends through. Although they both SIed so they understand what I am going through, I seem to be the one that is having the hardest time trying to stop and I do it pretty bad sometimes so they worry a lot. I hate myself for doing this to them. Both of them we're able to stop, But i am so weak and I just couldn't resist.
How can I stop??
How can I get my friends to stop worrying??
How can I prevent hurting them again??

[ˈsäləˌterē]

It doesn't mean you're weak hun, just that you maybe have more to overcome or more things triggering you or less support or that you're just not ready yet. You have to want to stop for you, not for them. Try to find alternatives to harming when you feel the urge. There are lots of distractions n info on matching coping mechanisms with what you're feeling. Once you've checked those out. Make yourself a card or something with the techniques that fit you n keep it with you. Let your friends know what you've learned n that should give them comfort and maybe be useful to them too.

[musicmad123]

I'm just gonna throw this out there, how do you know they both also SI ? does it not seem a bit too

coincidental

. if they don't maybe it's just not a bigger problem as it is for you, it's not

your

fault

hun

, try not to compare yourself to them, cause you're you. Friends are always going t worry, but that's what they're there for sometimes, have you got a counselor/therapist any kind of

support

?

[lonely_hope]

You're not at all weak! I'm glad you've found some support in your friends. I've had some of my friends find out about my SI too :/ One of them has also gone through it, and has recovered. I haven't yet either.

I really hope you're alright! You can and will get through this. You're trying, and that's a great start! Feel free to send a PM if you ever need to talk. Hang in there :)

*hugs and love*

[VampiricShadow]

You're not weak <3 I promise. I wish I could give you advice on how to stop... Maybe keep a blog? Or just journal when you feel like cutting? Ugh I know, I know... you've heard that before. *Hug* Just remember you're lovely <3