Manic/hypomania episode???

[Carrina]

I'm currently navigating my way through mental health services trying to gain a proper diagnosis. Some people are saying bipolar, my GP is saying depression. Needless to say, I'm confused and annoyed by it all. I want to know what's wrong so I can get treatment.

Okay, so I've been writing down all my mental health problems so I have it on hand when I talk to a psychiatrist (whenever that may be!). Now my main issue is I'm having irritable 'highs', rather than any kind of euphoria. However, I'm remembering that I did experience something that could be considered a manic euphoric high, but I'm not sure... maybe someone can help me out?

I was at a play reading (it was my play, only a short one, and lots of other people had their readings too) and I was very very restless and elated. My friend's were there and I was really talkative and started demanding drinks. I then proceeded to drink quite a lot. I'm not sure if I was like this before or after the drink, which is why I'm confused as to if it was a 'high'. I'm a shy introverted person so this was odd for me. I couldn't shut up. I then became arrogant to the point of obnoxiousness. I was loudly insulting other peoples plays, proclaiming mine to be THE BEST. I was the greatest. I wasn'r embarrassed at the time but was afterwards. My friend went home and I'm still not sure if it was because of me being an idiot. I kept repeating myself and got angry when people didn't want to join in all the fun. So I'm just wondering, is this worth mentioning to a professional or am I over-analysing myself? =/

[Carrina]

Hey. Thanks for replying, I'll mention it to my GP.

That episode - if it was one - wasn't so scary, it was actually quite great at the time. But since then (few months ago) I had a terrible three days of restless energy and suicidal thoughts. That was really scary. I felt very impulsive - that's what made me think I need to see a professional. It's scary wondering if I'm going to experience this again. I'm used to standard depression, but not this.

[~SuNsHiNe~]

Hey definately mentiion it to a professional givn it was so out of character for u. I've had similar problems re dx for bipolar so know where ur coming from and feel for u. Hope u get it sorted out,the main thing is to be honest w ur health professionals so u get the proper treatment u need. My pm box is always open if u want to talk more,take care

[xXMessedUpXx]

Are you on any antidepressents? I only as as 3 times i have had hypomania caused by the meds i was on (or underlying bipolar but noone is sure)