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Possibly Triggering - diary of my new life **trig in places*
I had Forgotten all about this.
Well i am updating this tonight as I have not posted here for a long time.
My year started of good. February i worked out that i conceived for a baby which I knew nothing about. i had all the symptoms tender breasts, sickness etc. It them came to may had a miscarriage which some of you are already aware of. On this date i woudl of been 6 months and showing.
I named the baby jo as i did not know what sex it was.
Also had difficulties in my home life as we had a close friend live here with us and it made things hard for me due to me having depression, anxiety, mood swings etc. Which i don't plan when they happen. Also found out some other stuff which i dont really want to say just in case she comes on here.
Dont get me wrong but when you have depression you dont want to do anything as you get distracted well i do dont know about anyone else.
So i have decided it is time for me to try and beat depression.
and the following list
1. health - try to eat healthy and keep my blood sugars down. Loose the required weight which i have from the hospital which is 15.4 then they will treat me. time limit to get to 15.4 and get my BMI down will be 6 months. Don't really want to eat TAKEAWAYS as much as i have been and to cut down on sugary drinks. Example drink sugar free drinks, water and do exercise daily or go to the gym or swim a few times a week. Walk to the furthest Bus stop.
2. Job or college course - i have been sitting around in the house for far to long and have to much time on my hands. This is why I think i have had a relapse in my depression. As i tend to think about my past more. Having a job or college course to do will allow me to focus on the job i may like or do voluntary work or do a course to further my education which will result in me getting a good job. Having extra money will help me as well. Dont really have a time limit for this but would like to start a course in september even if it is just doing a self esteem course which mine is very very low at the moment.
3. House - this is important. My house is such a mess and i have not really done much about it until the other week. Me and my husband tend to hord stuff which we need to get rid of. I managed to do the bathroom bit by bit. I am sick of living in a mess because i have worked out that if i live in a mess then my inside is going to be a mess too. So if I start cleaning this will make me feel better and my husband will feel better coming home to a tidyier flat. This will be a challenge and i am willing to give it a go. So time limit is to do a bit each day.
4. Church - friends. I feel that my church life and my friends are important to me. Some have been a great help even since my miscarriage. I tend not to listen to some of them but they have kicked me up the butt and put me into shape and actually talked and told me some home truths. My church especially I tend to run before i face up to things. I feel like i need these people around me not only for there friendship but for them to support me as well. I had a difficult time with my church but now we are getting on great and i have them to support me on my spiritual side. My best friends tell me how it is. Husband, and some people i will keep quiet as you wont know who they are as they dont post on here or use this forum.
just come by and stick with me and i will tell you all how i am doing.
think i have actually rambled on enough
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