Hi, I don't know if this is appropriate, but I just wanted to know why some of you have eating disorders, like what events or family dynamics or things predisposed/caused your disordered eating? I just want to feel a little less alone and maybe find someone to relate similar experiences to? Thanks :)
So complicated,
Filled with so much hatred, Such a tired game
It's enough, I've done all I could think of, Chased down all my demons
I've seen you do the same
Pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than f*cking perfect
Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing, you're f*cking perfect to me <3
my eating disorder started when i was at college,doing my A-levels.i found college tough but then my dad died in the second year. thats when i used food to control things. i went into hospital and managed the best i could,but when i was discharged,my nana died and i once again stopped eating.
Hello.
My eating disorder started when I was ten when I was sexually abused. I used it to have some control over my life.
When you feel your life aint worth living
Youve got to stand up and
Take a look around you then a look way up to the sky.
And when your deepest thoughts are broken,
Keep on dreaming boy, cause when you stop dreamin its time to die. ---Blind Melon---
Hi Balanced, my eating disorder started when I was 14. My family's history of mental illness and my depression and anxiety are what pre-disposed me to it. I found that I could relieve anxiety about everyday things by obsessively following food-related rules and starving. My depression also gave me low self-esteem, which fueled the disordered thoughts.
My name is Matt, and I am a boy. Feel free to PM me :)
I have learned that the world is not a safe place. Not at all. But there are so many people who love me and want to keep me safe. And that is enough.
started restricting at 11... was always teased for my weight as a kid and im a military brat so we had just moved again and i was looking for ways to cope. Doctors put me on speed for ADHD and one of the side effects was loss of appetite.. restricting just seemed the logical thing to do at the time.. though looking back, it seems a rather textbook response to your question..
i don't technically have one so delete my post if you want but my EDNOS started when i was around 16/17. relationships with certain people impacted on me but it wasn't down to them that i "got" one. i felt like it gave me a great sense of control in my life that i didn't want to let go of.
i also found that, when my mum banned me from cutting.. it gave me something else to focus on.
A lot of you mentioned that it gave you a sense of control, did you consciously realize/think of the control it gave you, or was it more a general feeling?
So complicated,
Filled with so much hatred, Such a tired game
It's enough, I've done all I could think of, Chased down all my demons
I've seen you do the same
Pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than f*cking perfect
Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing, you're f*cking perfect to me <3