Look, Devil Baby, you answered all your questions in your post.
CALL THE RIOT VAN
I black out when I drink excessively in my managers house too.
WHAT C*UNT NICKED MY PJ's?
Hey, it is normal for me, but not f*ckin mainstream OK?
We will sort this out together. (In the meantime have some water in between your proper drinks - you might pee more but at least we will be on the same wavelength.
Hmmm...
I used to go kind of nuts when I was drinking. Like, trying to walk ten miles through the ghetto, hop on a train to the airport, and fly across the country. Or like being completely positive that everyone was talking about me and secretly hated me.
Thing is, when I quit drinking, this got worse until I dealt with the reasons this was happening. I don't know if you go to therapy or how you feel about it in general, but it helped me. It wasn't easy though.
Good luck, I hope you are able to find some help.
PM me if you'd like to talk--I'm here to help, and now that I'm sober I have plenty of coherent time :).
D'Arcy
Nullum magnum ingenium sine mixtura dementiae.
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Thanks monarkh. I have been getting help since I was about 10 or 11 (plus a bit when I was 5! And well I seem to have got worse as time has gone on.
I know I can get worse when I drink but also have good timeswhen I drink...
I am glad I'm not the only one to do things (like walking long distances - i tried to walk from uni to my home which is over an hours drive with no shoes etc)
I just wonder, since these things happen with out drink sometimes if the drink is involved. ?
You made up your mind to torture mine!
If you read a scar like a book, you will relise the story in which you over look
I don't really have anything useful to say, but I was thinking.. not to anything like the same extent, but I tend to get suicidal and have done some fairly stupid things when I drink.. and I know for me, it's not that the alcohol creates problems, just exacerbates what's already there. So if I'm feeling bad I'll end up a mess but otherwise I'll be okay.
Maybe it would be a good idea to avoid drinking, at least when things are bad? If you're really not willing to do that, please try to at least make sure you're as safe as possible, maybe try to limit how much you drink, make sure you're with people who will be able to take care of you.
Just be careful, yeah? Maybe something to talk about once you get some help sorted out..
Take care of yourself. Sorry this wasn't much use but here if you need anything! xx
the thing is I am okay then I snap, normally blacking out, and go off the edge - without warning. And when I want to self destruct I just won't stop...
i currently want to drink myself into oblivion - know I shouldn't...
You made up your mind to torture mine!
If you read a scar like a book, you will relise the story in which you over look
