hi people iam new

[Matt]

hi everyone on here just joined up a few minutes ago found this website on google. iam 15 and want to kill myself dont know where else to go as i have no one i can trust. so here iam... currently 2 failed suicide attempts.

[Audrey]

Hi,

Glad you joined. Means you want to talk which is a GOOD thing!!

Why do you feel like this hun?

[Cazki]

Hi welcome to ryl hope you enjoy being here and get the support you need. If ever you need to talk please dont hesitate to pm me. Take care.

[Matt]

most of my friends have betrayed me and just cant be asked to live anymore. cant decide which way is best, knife or rope

[Cazki]

Are you ok?

[Audrey]

neither of those options are best. what's best is talking to people on here who understand and who can give you the advice to get through this. not everyone will betray you, please don't feel so alone x

[Cazki]

Your welcome to pm me if you need to talk Matt.

[Matt]

often i have these evenings when i just like to sit in my room and think about my life, i cant imagine it going anywhere if iam honest. i cant see myself in 5 years time 20 with a nice girl and a flat somewhere... ive never trusted anyone in my life everyone i know has betrayed me in someway or another. say my dog, ive never actually selfharmed myself never cut or anything just tried to end it all. iam calmer now but how to i find more friends, its the middle of summer and ive got new college next year. much easier to die honouralby than to take **** at college

[Cazki]

It sounds like your having a difficult time Matt please dont feel you have to do this alone. Im here so if you want someone you can trust then you can trust me.

[Matt]

its not i dont trust the people on these forums or you, its just iam not sure what to do withmyself. ill be alone at college, or with people i cant trust, iam shy and dont find it easy to find new friends specialy in new places, going to college where i know about 7 people.... i just feel angry with the ones that betrayed me so angry. part of my problem is i watch too many films, they give me false hope of a situation that iam not actually in, i have not told even any of my family about this i just cant trust anyone .

[Cazki]

I dont have many friends either mate. I had a good friend at college and now he doesnttalk to me. He doesnt care. But your not alone mate. No one on here will betray you. This is an excellent site.

[Matt]

not worried about people betraying me on here. its just when i look for a friend which i dont the main thing i value is loyalty. being someone so blunt and honest like myself people dont see those things as a positive attribute.. specialy honesty these days. being stuck at home in the longest holiday of my life is very depressing. :( makes me think to much no doubt! should i be worried that on a daily basis i think of killing people? sometimes myself? there are atleast 5-10 people i would hapily murder, iam worried about myself and where this is gna end me up..

[GiveMeHellKid]

Hi Matt.

Right, it's good you joined here if you're feeling like that, we're all here to help and support you.

It's a good thing to look for in someone is loyalty, it's just hard to find.

Thinking about killing people isn't a good thing, but it doesnt necessarily mean you're going to do it, just that you're very angry with people.

PM me any time you want.

[Cazki]

I hope your ok matt. Please pm if you want to talk. Take care mate.

[raistlin]

Welcome to RYL Matt. I hope you are doing okay as well. You are going through a rought time right now but things will let up. We are here for you. Feel free to message me anytime. :D

[Stellata]

Welcome.

[.ghost.]

Welcome to RYL, I'm dorry you're going through a hard time right now, I hope you're ok.
Feel free to PM me if you need any help or anything.
Take care
xx