How can I do this?

joseybaby93 · 17-12-2009, 02:10 AM

So im in outpatient right now for self-injury. Tomorrow i have a family session. I want to tell my mom how my ex-stepdad used to do sexual things to me from the age of 6 to 9. Im not sure if he ever raped me. But i remember his giving me a pill because he said it would help me sleep. And i have this faint memory of someone raping me. Im scared she's gonna get mad at me because he would give me money after he did it and i would take it. I dont know how im going to tell her HELP!!!

startingagain · 17-12-2009, 08:05 PM

Have you talked about it first with your counsellor? It sounds like you need to deal with it first. x

joseybaby93 · 18-12-2009, 01:07 AM

Well i told her what happened. She was sad that it happened and wished she could have protected me. He is actually in jail right now for sexual abuse of a child. But now my mom is talking about taking this to court. I dont want to because i have enough flashbacks and nightterrors abut him. And doing that would just make me have to re-live it all over again. But at the same time i want to keep him from doing this to another child. Now i dont know what to do about that either!

Sigma · 18-12-2009, 02:49 PM

I'm glad your Mum is supportive... I guess you don't have to decide right now about taking it to court? Could you ask your Mum for some time for you both to have a breather, now you've coped with telling her? See how you feel in a few weeks time, talk with your counsellor, talk some more with your Mum, and take things at your own pace.

take care