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Triggering (SI) - thoughts
i've been trying to push myself under the pretence that i can make a choice about things. i've been telling myself that self injury is wrong, stupid, and a silly way of getting by. i've been 'punishing' myself even at the thought of 'standard' self injury. its not something that i've allowed... but then
self harming for me is not a choice, you know ,its not something that i do because i wake up and i think 'i might cut today', i wake up and i think, ' i'm trying to cope with this day, and i need to get through it in any way i can'.
and as for people thinking i should be ok, or those who expect me to be ok before recieving help... tell the person with the broken leg you're not going to give them a cast, but you want them to walk away from the clinic. Or the person with a heart condition to think themselves well enough to run a marathon.
and so what if i don't conform to your idea of normal. and so what if in your mind i'm 'mad', and so What if you look down on me for being honest about who i am, and so what if you feel i'm less of a person- like i don't? and so What if you label me with something i'm not, to suit your needs. its exactly that, your need not mine. you're human, and have needs.... and so do i
this is aimed at no one specific... its just general thoughts...
and to those, who are 'just human', i'm 'just human' too
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