Triggering (SI) - on the news and other stuff

[zivalover16]

This morning I was watching the news before I had to leave and noticed that they were going to talk about self injury ( something that is very rare in this part of the US anyway). Like the idiot I am I went online to watch the video. I was already triggered because I have a very big phobia of floods and of course it flooded a bit today ( I am in Florida) I got yelled at for asking my brother to stop making annoying noises, I tripped for the second time using my bad wrist to catch myself and it's hurting now and my knee decided to swell and cause me immense pain. I found the video very interesting but it sent me over board... I hate myself and am jealous of the girl in the thing because she checked herself into a place and has been free for a year... I know it's stupid but I am...I am terrified to stop but know I have to and somewhat want to. I see a therapist and we talked about me and stopping. She suggested I go into a partial hospitalization which I want to do but can't because of my parents and I am going to wait until next summer. I'm not really sure why I am posting this other than to let it out.... any advice would be ok.....sorry it's so long. ( I also got pissed because they talked about how if you si you most likely have an eating disorder....they don't seem to understand si where I am)

[88shelz]

why have you decided to wait til next summer
if you feel you need treatment then you should go for it now while you have the chance
hospitalisation can be really helpful but you need to be ready for recovery

[The Dancing Chicken]

I am sorry that the show was so triggering. I am in Illinois, and there are very few shows on SI here, but sometimes there are news segments, and they are all extremely triggering. I don't really understand why (I have written letters to networks about it, but they don't respond), maybe because they feel like they need something flashy or people won't pay attention. They also tend to provide incorrect or highly over generalized information (such as the eating disorder stuff you mentioned).
About getting help... If you feel like a program would help, that is what you should do. Why don't you parents think you should do the program now? A lot can happen in a year -- do they think everything will be all better next summer? I wish I could give you some real advice, because it sounds like you are having a really hard time right now, but hang in there.

[zivalover16]

I am hoping by next summer I will doing better...I am going away to school so I will be away from my biggest triggers.. also the other thing that will help most likely is the fact that I am going away to school....The other thing that got me pissssed off was the fact the the news women said if your daughter is wearing long sleeves during the summer roll her sleeve up...THAT' NOT WHAT YOU DO!!!!!!! sry. It got me really pissed.