Triggering (SI) - I don't believe you....

Country Girl · 12-07-2009, 05:01 AM

You say you love me,
But I don’t believe you.
You don’t say it because you mean it
You say it because you have to,
You are suppose to,
It’s your job.
It’s been 369 days
Since you showed any sort of affection to me.
368 days ago, I tried to hug you,
But you pushed me away.
I will never be good enough for you.
I will never make you happy.
I just want you to accept me.
You make me want to hurt me.
You make me want to bleed.
You make me hate myself.

Popple · 12-07-2009, 10:02 AM

You sound very upset. Do you want to talk more about who this person is and whats going on? Maybe we will be able to help a little if we can understand the situation you are in.
Take care of yourself
x

Cazki · 12-07-2009, 03:26 PM

*Hugs* I'm sorry your having a difficult time. Can you talk to us some more about whats happening for you? Do you have any support? Who is the person that is doing this to you? Please keep safe, dont hurt yourself in any way. I'm here for you.

Take care all the best Ian

Country Girl · 12-07-2009, 04:45 PM

It's my Mom. I think it's pretty self explainatory. I am never good enough from her, everything is about her. How I feel doesn't matter to her.
I have some support. I am on antidepressants and see an MD/LPN once a month. I quite going to my counselor, he was kind of judegmental towards me and there's only one other that I can go to and I'm not sure if I feel comfortable with that. I have one Prof at Uni that has been amazing, he's like a Dad to me. I have a few friends who know and understand, but, yeah...