I had loads of escaping dreams. I've been shut out my room for trying to practice jumping off things. But L came to see me, that was nice. I want the day to be over. I'm going to get my meds early.
Getting the meds might be helpful, are they to help you sleep? If so, then getting some extra sleep sounds like a good idea and will help the day be over! Well done for almost getting through your first day here :)
You cannot get through a single day without having an impact on the world around you What you do makes a difference, and you have to decide what kind of difference you wish to make.
You cannot get through a single day without having an impact on the world around you What you do makes a difference, and you have to decide what kind of difference you wish to make.
The conversation was ok. He gave me a form to fill in in prep for ward rounds. I didn't answer most of the questions, they were asking what help I wanted etc.
I slept really badly but managed to get up for breakfast.
What made it difficult to answer the questions about what help you want? Would it be better if someone was to explain what they think they can offer you? Sorry you had a bad sleep, I think the first night in hospital is the worst. Hopefully tonight will be better. Did you take your night meds?
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
I don't want their help, I just want to be set free! I did take night meds, about 8.45pm. I thought they gave them when they were good and ready but you do queue when you want them.
I think to be set free you need to get some help first. You've been in this position before, maybe with different kinds of thoughts, but you've always made it through and the beliefs subside at least a bit.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
Could you speak to any staff member about your worries?
You cannot get through a single day without having an impact on the world around you What you do makes a difference, and you have to decide what kind of difference you wish to make.
Sometimes it's easier to speak to someone you don't really know, they might have different ideas and support methods because they don't have prejudgements of you as much as people who know you. Also, you need to talk to people to get to know them. You're there to be listened to and supported and you need to try and use that.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
I'm not sure what I expect from writing here, but writing in rv wasn't enough. I'm finding it hard to ask for help with the voices because every time I get close they make me punish myself with sh. Maybe if I keep schtum everyone will go away?
Maybe if you tell someone about the voices but that they punish you with self harm they could help with the voices and keeping safe from voices instructions to self harm?
It must be really distressing and confusing and it's valid to want help but at same time be scared.
Hopefully if ou engage with staff you will get home quicker.
Ah but the only way you get to go home and stay home is telling the truth and have them help you get to a place where you are more safe and not self harming etc.
My arms were itchy, driving me mad. Meds didn't help, grounding didn't help, ice packs didn't help. They acted like I was mental when I started taking my stitches out. I swear, it was the only thing that worked. Luckily the rest are officially being taken out today, though they keep putting me off.
Had ward rounds, I didn't say anything because the voices had warned me and I didn't want to have to punish myself again. I think the psych said he was going to do something with my meds.
