Contamination

[Cacoethes]

I had my depot and I started to feel very sick and had ringing in my ears. I had some fruit and it got better but now I can literally feel my blood rushing around in my veins and it feels thick and gritty.
It’s so uncomfortable. I asked for a blood test in case the depot was poisoned but they said I’m being paranoid.
It feels horrible

[Unbreakable.]

That sounds super unpleasant :(
Hopefully you'll feel better soon <3

Btw, I watched the Ross is Fine episode today and you probably know I can't do that without telling you :P

[Auror.]

I hope it passes soon. I can understand the fear of it being poisoned, but they'd get into a lot of trouble if they did that, and at least thus far that has never occurred. So I'd try not to put a lot of power into those thoughts if possible. I know it is easier said than done though. I'm glad you told the staff though.

[Cacoethes]

Thank you both <3

I’m trying hard not to let my blood out because I like being in my room and they definitely won’t let me in here if I cut myself.
I have something I can use but can’t give it in because I genuinely need it. I don’t think I’m allowed to say what it is but I can give it in tomorrow.
The nurses may not know it was poisoned. It could have been done at the pharmacy or when they manufactured it.
They said that’s not true but they don’t know that.
I am distressed.

Haha Lana!
Got to be done!

[Pomegranate]

How would the manufacturers have known who the medication was going to be given to? Also meds have to be checked by two people at the pharmacy and since depots don’t start working immediately due to how they’re released, it would not be an effective way to poison someone anyway.

Hopefully that doesn’t sound blunt, just trying to give rationale.

[Cacoethes]

That’s true Emma. Thanks

I wonder why I can suddenly feel my blood then?
It’s a very uncomfortable feeling and I cAnt seem to get rid of it

[Auror.]

i know similar can occur for me when medical things occur because i get worried and anxious about having things in me. is asking for prn an option?

[Cacoethes]

I will ask for prn but there’s a long queue for meds at the moment.

[Unbreakable.]

I hope you're feeling better by now & that you can sleep tonight!

[Cacoethes]

Thank you Lana
I am feeling better though the blood thing is still iffy.
I have ward round today so maybe they can explain it

[tamobhuuta]

I hope ward rounds go ok.

[Cacoethes]

Thanks tamo
It's at 1:30
I am nervous

[Cacoethes]

Had ward round.
They are going to think about discharge next week which is good.
Still not allowed in my room all day but the time has been increased.
And I can go for a walk with the nurse on Friday. Not with the smokers. All in all quite a positive ward round.
Though disappointed I can't leave this week
They said they have to talk to my care coordinator (my new one) and the psychologist and my mum.
I hope they can do that quickly

[one_step_closer]

Great, sounds like some good plans and progress going on. I hope they can get things sorted so you can get home with the right level of support.

[Cacoethes]

Thanks lindsay

[Auror.]

Discharge planning sounds good, yay! It sucks that it's not right away but it sounds like they are planning for it and just want to make sure you have the right support in place maybe? Also maybe they just can't this week with the end of the week being a holiday?

[Cacoethes]

Thanks Camden
Yes they do want to make sure the support is in place.
They have concerns that my new cpn doesn't know me though
I think that's also partly a reason. And the consultant isn't back until next week.
They discharged one person today but she was voluntary so that's probably why it was easier for her

[Auror.]

I bet it either had to be discharge today or wait until next week, and they probably felt today was too quick. I'm sure you wouldn't have minded though lol.

It sucks having to start over with new humans, but I guess the only way for you to really get to know one another is to be able to start working together. Which you can't do if you're stick in hospital.

[not_so_insig]

Will you still be on a cto upon discharge or dont you know?

[Cacoethes]

I definitely wouldn't have minded! Lol

That is true. My previous cpn wasn't that great so I do welcome the change tbh. And I think I may have met her before in the depot clinic as nurses take turns doing it so I think I've met all the nurses at the cmht.

Yes I'll still be on a CTO unfortunately