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...........................................i need to...... i need to be.........dead......... theres no escape from them......... none.......... no where is safe!!!!!!!!!!!!
just another floating iceberg in this ocean we call life...….
Am I a failure from birth
Is misery what I deserve
Am I just so void of love
That I'm never good, never good enough
~citizen soldier-never good enough
I really would suggest that you think about telling the staff that you do not want your cousins to visit you, if it's upsetting you this much. I know you've said that it would be too hard, but it sounds like seeing them is really hard as well, so could be worth considering?
earyer in the week the power at the group home went out because of the weather and then a pipe busted so until the repairs are done we have to stay at one of the staff house...
just another floating iceberg in this ocean we call life...….
Am I a failure from birth
Is misery what I deserve
Am I just so void of love
That I'm never good, never good enough
~citizen soldier-never good enough
i just found out that if im good that i can go home this weekend im kinda scared though because of my cousions might show up but i know that if i dont go i wont be able to get a chance at getting some drugs..........
Last edited by Pi.R^2 : 23-02-2021 at 07:04 PM.
Reason: removed discussion of illegal activity
just another floating iceberg in this ocean we call life...….
Am I a failure from birth
Is misery what I deserve
Am I just so void of love
That I'm never good, never good enough
~citizen soldier-never good enough
It was somewhat good I saw a beautiful lady at Starbucks on Monday and found out her name (the starbucks person remembered her name when i was asking about her and she was in line after me) and got a new hat and spent time watching movies with my mom ……… and somewhat bad….. didn’t get any xxxxx or tools………… which means I have no way of coping with my life so it sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >_<
Last edited by Darkwings44 : 03-03-2021 at 11:36 PM.
Reason: explaining it more
just another floating iceberg in this ocean we call life...….
Am I a failure from birth
Is misery what I deserve
Am I just so void of love
That I'm never good, never good enough
~citizen soldier-never good enough
i found this qoute online today and it makes sense......
"Self harm is a learned behavior, it's something your brain gets used, after a while your brain will also crave it. Self harm becomes your teddy bear, your "safety", something that makes you feel in control (even though you're far from in control).
i know that this is a recovery site but im not ready to let go of my self harm im not ready to let go of what makes me feel safe inside of my mind..... or outside of my mind...... im sorry.........
just another floating iceberg in this ocean we call life...….
Am I a failure from birth
Is misery what I deserve
Am I just so void of love
That I'm never good, never good enough
~citizen soldier-never good enough
I think it's okay to accept that you aren't in a place to quit self harming, because it definitely is a way to cope. That said, there's a difference between that and encouraging or glamorizing self harm, which is what RYL in general (and the rules) take issue with.
Please do not give me virtual hugs unless you are only using the hug function on threads. Thanks.
You can't always keep it separate.
This is happening, this is part of you.
i feel like like dung........ today i thought of a idea that seemed like a good idea (a safe place IRL ran by self harmers for self harmers where self harmers can go and not be judged and not feel alone and be in a place where everyones dealing with the same stuff they go through ....) i made a thread about it but i deleted it because i didnt want to get in truble but someone said that they dont think it a good thing..... =(
just another floating iceberg in this ocean we call life...….
Am I a failure from birth
Is misery what I deserve
Am I just so void of love
That I'm never good, never good enough
~citizen soldier-never good enough
It’s a tricky one! I think it’s fab you’re being so open and honest though . Self harm IS a coping strategy, as in it helps people manage feelings and thoughts that otherwise seem really overwhelming. Having said that though; just because it’s an understandable course of action, does not mean it is the BEST or the right course of action....
Curveball
. Self harm IS a coping strategy, as in it helps people manage feelings and thoughts that otherwise seem really overwhelming. Having said that though; just because it’s an understandable course of action, does not mean it is the BEST or the right course of action....
