Recovery

[Ahimsa]

Could you just ask him if he can go through with you anything handed over from the locum psych? You wouldn't need to say anything specific, just say you've forgotten what she said and can he review it with you?

[tamobhuuta]

That's a good idea.

[tamobhuuta]

Proper psych was back. Mum says in the bit before they bring you in he basically said the stand in was wrong, spoke out of turn, and he isn't looking at changing my diagnosis.

[one_step_closer]

I know you didn't agree with the other psych's opinion and I guess you're glad your diagnosis isn't being changed. I was wondering if you agree with your current diagnosis then since you have conflicting views about if you're unwell or not?

[tamobhuuta]

I don't agree that I'm unwell but if I was, EUPD would be the last one I thought appropriate.

[one_step_closer]

How did you get on when you saw your usual psych the other day?

[tamobhuuta]

OK. He got me snother blood testvto see if there's any room for upping my clozapine. I don't know the plan if there isn't.

[one_step_closer]

I really hope they can work out something that helps you to be ok to go home and get back to doing the things you like.

[tamobhuuta]

I saw the psych this morning. No changes to meds so he must think I'm improving. I told him about the couple of occasions when I thought maybe my evidence without the voices was a bit flimsy. He wasn't totally amazed like I expected!

[one_step_closer]

Do you think you're improving? Do you speak to the nurses about your thoughts etc? I think nurses can sometimes be more understanding and encouraging if appropriate than psychs.

[tamobhuuta]

I don't talk to the nurses. I think I'm improving.

On Thursday a patient who I get on well with said she saw the devil in my eyes and I should get an exorcism. This has really thrown me. I told staff and the patient has said she won't say stuff like that again. But stuff like that sticks in your brain you know.

[one_step_closer]

I'm sorry the patient said that and has made things more difficult for you. Remember she's unwell and people often say things that reflect how they are feeling rather than it being something about you, although I do know it can seem like it was directed at you.

[tamobhuuta]

Yesterday the psych added in another med. I kind of sort of want it to work.

[one_step_closer]

What do you think the med working would look like to you? Did the psych explain why they added it and how it might make you feel? I hope it helps.

[tamobhuuta]

They want me to stop believing I can fly.

[one_step_closer]

I think I can understand why you say you kind of want the med to work. It means challenging things but if you didn't have the belief about flying your life could be a lot easier. I hope everything works out.

[tamobhuuta]

I might be going to a rehab.

[one_step_closer]

What are your initial thoughts about that?

[tamobhuuta]

It might be good? It's in my hometown. I'd probably start on the ward then progress to a flatlet. My parents are cautiously in favour which is rubbing off on me.