Positive recovery post - It's worth it.
I just got a 'happy birthday' email from RYL. I turn 30 tomorrow. I joined this site in 2007 (eek!) as a distraught, struggling teen. I won't lie- between SI, an ED, depression/anxiety, and domestic abuse, the 14 years between joining and now haven't been easy. I never once thought that I would live to see 30, but here we are. It's been such an emotional week as I near this milestone towards a future that I never thought I'd have, but there's something new in my heart, now- hope.
It isn't fast, it isn't simple, and it isn't easy, but recovering your life is worth it. YOU are worth it. Day by day, week by week, month by month, year by year, keep fighting. Please keep fighting. One day you will realize that maybe it isn't so bad anymore, that you smiled a few times, and that you're feeling just a little bit better. It might take until 15, 20, 25, 30, 35, 40, or beyond, but life is for learning, and life is for living. Hang in there, everyone. I am sending each and every one of you more love than I can express. You can do it.