Its been a long time since I was last here! An awful lot has happened over the past few years, including being sectioned and in hospital for two of those.
I have been home for 7 months now and I am 9 months SH free this month. The longest I have managed for many years. Things are ok, I am still trying to find my way in this 'normal, but not normal' real world.
I'm feeling a little lost, I'm not sure where I fit in now. I have lost many friends since I was admitted, lots have moved on as they have moved with the world and I 'left' and now 'I'm back'. I don't know what I want to do, how much I can handle. My CMHT was meant to support me but my care co is, well, to put it politely, she is rubbish. Even she admitted that she would be dangerous if she had a brain
I have lost a lot of confidence for many reasons. One is that my teeth really have given up now, after years of ED's and a dental phobia. I have actually booked a dentist appointment which is later this month. I know this is something I desperately need sorting before I can apply for jobs and attend interviews.
The second reason is weight gain. I know this isn't the ED forum so I don't want to talk to much about it as I don't want to trigger people but I wanted to mention a couple of my reasons for losing confidence.
Anyway, do you great people have any advice on how I can find my place in the world now I am home or how I can gain confidence?
Thank you in advance, lots of love to you all x