I think I'm going mad. It's been 3 weeks, almost a whole month, but that's not the issue.
I'm stressed out, I'm putting all the blame on myself and I want to punish myself or make myself pay for it when I don't know how else to. There's rumors about me at school again, the same ones about me being gay, but now another one of my friends is involved. I'll get the same talking to that my parents have given me before of: "don't crap where you eat. we told you not to do this," etc etc.
I feel like I'm about to burst.