My routine is basic. Meds, eat, sleep, eat, meds, sleep. I try and motivate myself to play games and read and watch tv but mostly I stay in bed and get suffocated by my own impure thoughts, instructive and negative thoughts. I try and sit with them or ignore them but they bounce back. I should use distractions but motivation isn't there.
God, I need to move out and it hurts every second I'm here, like physically I can feel it. Emotionally I'm in hell but not because this place isn't bad but it isn't for me. At this moment in time I just want things to stop.