Hello, sorry to hear that things have gone a bit wonky recently. It's good that you've got some insight and can see where you're getting into old cycles. Has anything happened to cause this do you think?
What helped you when you were recovering first time round? Also think about why you started recovery- maybe some of those reasons still apply now and can be used to motivate you, even if you don't feel like you've got enough fight to do everything right now, there might be little bits you can work on.