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Old 28-05-2022, 01:08 PM   #1
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Shocked and confused with myself

Iíve had two sessions of SH in the last 3 days, both resulting in a hospital visit. Iím left feeling perplexed, confused, ashamed.
I think Iím self sabotaging because deep down I think Iíll never be good enough for my expectations. The head spin and euphoria that I experienced really took me out of rational thinking and into dangerous territory, which is scary. I donít know why I did it. I donít know how to not do it again. Itís the most addictive thing. But Iím sore and hiding it from everyone is horrible. Iím so ashamed. I even feel ashamed writing this. Like Iím really worth nothing right now.

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Old 28-05-2022, 03:08 PM   #2
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Oh dear, sorry to hear that you've had such a difficult few days; I hope you were treated well in the hospital.

Self harm can be so addictive but it is possible to break that cycle. What kind of distractions have you tried in the past?

What is your situation with professional support at the moment?

We may not see eye to eye, but we can respect each other's opinions and find the truth in them.
Perhaps in those honest conversations, instead of demonising each other,
we might see each other as imperfect humans, doing our best. ~ Jodi Picoult

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Old 16-06-2022, 12:24 PM   #3
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I'm thinking of you sweetie and always here if you need to chat or just needing that distraction or anything.. msg me anytime xx

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