Do I have an eating disorder?
Weird thing to start with, maybe, but bear with me.
I've punished my body in various ways most of my life as a means of coping with the fallout of physical and sexual abuse. One of the ways this manifests is in depriving myself of food and/or water for extended periods of time.
When I spiral, one of the first things that happens is I stop eating or eat as little as possible. I don't vomit or purge or binge. There's definitely a mental component to it. I use it to regain control, numb emotions, and punish myself.
Is this an eating disorder, or just a less-than-healthy coping mechanism? Any advice for combating this problem?