There are parts of me just stuck inside the grocery
In the produce aisle where the dead beats
Rustling trying to look busy but they're high like me
There are parts of you, I see you argue with yourself and I think you're crazy, really
We're both running out of days, I pray you get by like me
This is temporary, I just heard I'm gonna be a dad
South Dakota, every winter someone loses it
I'm lost without a single clue as to where I'm headed
I wait for her because without her I'm gonna sink
Would you marry me? repeat repeat There's no clarity tomorrow
I'm not even trying to swat those demons away from me
Is it temporary? I don't think I want to be a dad
Nobody knew today would be the day he loses it
I'm lost without a single clue as to where I'm heading
I look for her because without her I'm going to sink
The snow is piling up, our temporary grid
It was just like this, this time last year
There's nothing in the wind, just white up to the trees
And it's been that way for eternity
The grocery, Elise, thirteen, was buried by your arrow
Steep shriek of the softball team, it rewinds me
Will you pray for me? repent, repeat
I'm a clock and a balance beam If I die there's nothing I keep that reminds me
Microscopic specks of love being raptured to you
I heard a sound that was paranormal
Must've thought I had begged him to bury me
Bleeding out, better buy one to get one
The snow is piling up, our temporary grid
It was just like this, this time last year
There's nothing in the wind, just white up to the trees
And it's been that way for eternity
The time has come to abide by your folly
It's so unusually bright for the scene
You are the blood in my blood, you pretender
It took your blood on my blood to believe
When I'm gone, are you gonna miss me? Are you even listening? Do you even care about anything at all?
Misery
Why have you always been so good to me
You've always been my only ride or die
Side by side
Oh You are so good to me
Beautiful Misery
Under the weight of my invading deep depression
I'm losing sane against the gravity of life
And with anxiety in every conversation
Earning it to learn how to survive
Because of you
I put the violence in submission
Because of you
I'm not afraid, I'm not afraid
Because of you, I am adapted to the vicious
And this pain
It keeps me wide awake
Misery
Why have you always been so good to me
You've always been my only ride or die
Side by side
Oh You are so good to me
Beautiful Misery
I feel the pressure crawling under my skin
All these voices in my head
They keep me safe from within
It's like I'm trapped up in a prison
We are one and the same
All I want is some peace
Just to live for a day
Someone tell me what it's like to feel
I go deep cold cuts but the knife is real
This life is real, talkin with the beast within
Wonder who I gotta kill when I pierce the skin
This life of sin, everybody wants a piece
All up in my ****ing face what you want from me
I want to bleed
Sick of all the trife and greed
Tell me why my ****ing sadness has to taste so sweet?
Misery
Why have you always been so good to me
You've always been my only ride or die
Side by side
Oh You are so good to me
Beautiful Misery
This is the chaos and I cannot avoid it
Rebuilt this temple while you ****ing destroyed it
This is the chaos and I cannot avoid it
Rebuilt this temple and you ****ing destroyed it
This is the chaos and I cannot avoid it
Rebuilt this temple and you ****ing destroyed it
Misery
Why have you always been so good to me
You've always been my only ride or die
Side by side
Oh You are so good to me
Beautiful Misery
Oh you are so good to me
Beautiful Misery
Oh you are so good to me
Beautiful Misery
Close your eyes, so many days go by.
Easy to find what's wrong, harder to find what's right.
Dance With The Devil - Breaking Benjamin
There is nothing like driving so fast that you can see the thin line between life and death
The voices want to end me
With words just like a blade
Cutting pieces from me
Till nothing remains, till I go insane
Eyes in the mirror that cannot be mine
Begging this stranger, “get out of my mind”
Fear overcomes me when I realize
It’s only me
I keep on screaming help
I cannot breathe
Someone save me from this hell
Trapped in this fight
All I can find is myself
Alone in my mind demons come to light
(Who will save you)
And over time demons come to life
Masters of seduction
And I like how they dance
(You have no place to hide)
Feeding my addiction
I play their game, another hit of pain
Eyes in the mirror that cannot be mine
Begging this stranger, “get out of my mind”
Fear overcomes me when I realize
It’s only me
I keep on screaming help
I cannot breathe
Someone save me from this hell
Trapped in this fight
All I can find is myself
Alone in my mind demons come to light
(Who will save you)
And over time demons come
I am not well
I wish I was happy
The world can’t help
Cause this storm’s inside me
Still I try, I’m trying to change
But there’s something broken, ****ed up in my brain
Partum my demons
There’s no reason
Part of me wants to be stuck in this dream and
(I can’t save me)
(I can’t save me)
(Who will save you)
I can't save me
(Who will save you)
I can't
I keep on screaming help
I cannot breathe
Someone save me from this hell
Trapped in this fight
All I can find is myself
Alone in my mind demons come to light
And over time demons come to life
Who will save me
When demons come to life
(Who will save you)
Who will save me
When demons come to life
(Who will save you)
Who will save me
(When demons come to life)
(I am not well, I wish I was happy)
(Demons come to life)
Close your eyes, so many days go by.
Easy to find what's wrong, harder to find what's right.
Dance With The Devil - Breaking Benjamin
There is nothing like driving so fast that you can see the thin line between life and death
Come to me, come to me
Yeah, I'll be your friend
You're sitting alone at home
With your open wrists that bleed all over
Been notable years now
Well, it's easy for me
Yeah, yeah
And maybe if I was not so vain
Well maybe then I would have seen it
You will find yourself in time
All it will take is some time
Know that all that it will take is some time
I am furthest from the sun
Closest to roots of the tree
You're not the only one under shade suffering
You'll hate her forevermore
And you'll love her the same
And she'll never understand no
Cause life seems to work that way
The dark DNA intact
Leaves a stain in your brain
Yeah I know
That I am not all that you see
Most of it you'd never want to be
You will find yourself in time
All it will take is some time
Know that all that it will take is some time
I am furthest from the sun
Closest to roots of the tree
You're not the only one under shade suffering
Enigma: deplete, I'm begging
Priority: I'm learning
All that is need I will be
Not enough time for trying
All that you are is much more,
than what you call as your worth.
You're who this is for, you're foremost.
Don't you forget, I love you.
You will find yourself in time
All it will take is some time
Know that all that it will take is some time
I am furthest from the sun
Closest to roots of the tree
You're not the only one under shade suffering
When I'm gone, are you gonna miss me? Are you even listening? Do you even care about anything at all?
[Verse 1]
Love, I have wounds
Only you can mend, you can mend oh, oh
I guess that's love
I can't pretend, I can't pretend oh, oh
[Verse 2]
Feel, my skin is rough
But it can be cleansed, it can be cleansed oh, oh
And my arms are tough
But they can be bent, they can be bent oh, oh
And I wanna fight
But I can't contend
[Chorus]
I guess that's love
I can't pretend, I can't pretend
[Bridge]
Oh, feel our bodies grow
And our souls they blend
Yeah, love, I hope you know
How much my heart depends
[Chorus]
But I guess that's love
I can't pretend, I can't pretend oh, oh
I guess that's love
I can't pretend, I can't pretend oh, oh
[Bridge]
Oh, feel our bodies grow
And our souls they blend
Yeah, love, I hope you know
How much my heart depends
Goodbye sleep, sunlight, and infinite time
Welcome nocturnal minds and deadlines
I keep eating away at my head
Hoping there's something good in it
But I've lost all my ideas
They fell through the holes in my brain
Along with my beliefs, and the morals I once had
If I could only find my niche, some place where I fit
I will never feel the way I felt back then
I wish I could see moments in time like a stretch of mountains
I know it sounds nostalgic
I need to know where I dreamt my incentive and talent
I will never feel the way I felt back then
Ever again, ever again, ever again, ever again
Don't sit next to me
I'm not the man I used to be
I wanna be left alone
With my heart carved out of stone
Nothing inspires me like it used to before
I started questioning why all my prayers were ignored
Sell me your innocence because I'm desolate and poor
I busted my golden halo on the floor
Let me wear your skin
I wanna be somebody's burden
I'm a stranger to my own complexion
I will never feel the way I felt back then
I wish I could see moments in time like a stretch of mountains
I know it sounds nostalgic
I need to know where I dreamt my incentive and talent
I will never feel the way I felt back then
Ever again, ever again, ever again, ever again
Goodbye sleep, sunlight, and infinite time
Welcome nocturnal minds and deadlines
When I'm gone, are you gonna miss me? Are you even listening? Do you even care about anything at all?
I wanna find comfort in the air
I wanna feel, I wanna love
I wanna care about anything
As much as everyone cares about everything
But the hardest habits to break are the ones
That we know are keeping us in place
I wish I could break, yeah, I wish I could
Break myself down and start again
And I'll reconstruct the cavity inside my chest
Replace whatever is left with something that still beats
I wanna do more than just breathe to stay alive
I wanna fall in line, I wanna fall in love
I want a reason to think reason is enough
Because I am not blind and you are not a liar
So tell me where is this faith I can't seem to find in anything
But the hardest habits to break are the ones
That we know are keeping us in place
I wish I could break, yeah, I wish I could
Save myself and save some money
So I could be part of something real
I wanna feel in my bones
I want to believe in anything
I want to believe in anything
When I'm gone, are you gonna miss me? Are you even listening? Do you even care about anything at all?
And if it's true, here's me telling you
And here's me glad as hell that you'll never know
And if it's true, here's me telling you
And here's me glad as hell that you'll never know
And ever since I heard
I've cursed her for putting that idea in my head
And I wear a stock smile so well
"I'm doing just fine,"
But what'd you do to make it better?
What'd you do to make it better?
I'm telling you, I've seen what it can do
What'd you do to make it better?
What'd you do to make it better?
And I wear a stock smile so well
But who deals with anything like this well?
And if it's true, here's me telling you
And here's me glad as hell that you'll never know
And if it's true, here's me telling you
And here's me glad as hell that you'll never know
And I think I lost my way
And either I stopped caring
Or I've been looking for it ever since
And maybe those two go hand in hand
And like you said
"sometimes you just shouldn't know, shouldn't ask,"
And I've been rushing through the world without a chance to really see
I've been rushing through
I've been rushing through
I've been rushing through
I've been rushing through the world
Oh, I've been so touch and go
Oh, I've been so touch and go
I find myself moving my legs to make sure I still can
And telling myself I don't have time
I'll just wait and curse the day
I'll just wait and curse the day
When I'm gone, are you gonna miss me? Are you even listening? Do you even care about anything at all?
Every time I look around my shoulder
I'm still trying to find you
Every time I wake up all alone without you
I'm still trying to find you
When I look in mirrors, faint reflection of you
I'm still trying to find you
Just behind my back, I feel your warmth and turn but
I'm still trying to find you
When I drive I sometimes speak to no one softly
I'm still trying to find you
When I dream of you I wake in pools of laughter
I'm still trying to find you
When I close my eyes and feel you breathing near me
I'm still trying to find you
Feel your heart in rhythm with mine every morning
I'm still trying to find you
Don't you know
There's a place where only dreaming people go
There's a finest line between us now
I don't know if I'm right or I'm wrong
And I don't know if it's worth the wait for—
Every time I look around my shoulder
I'm still trying to find you
Everytime I wake up all alone
I'm still trying to find you
Feel your heart in rhythm with mine every morning
I'm still trying to find you
Don't you know
There's a place where only sleeping people go
There's a finest line between us now
I don't know if I'm right or I'm wrong
And I don't know if it's worth the wait for—
Every time I look around my shoulder
I'm still trying to find you
Everytime I wake up all alone without you
I'm still trying to find you
Sometimes, all I think about is you
Late nights in the middle of June
Heat waves been faking me out
Can't make you happier now
It goes to show, that no matter how bad things get for me, there is still always one thing which brings me happiness. I must cling to this for it is the making of me, the beginning of my resurgance and the fightback epitomised. I will defeat my demons.
An ode to joy
A road to love
A note to keep your head above
The rising tide's not yet a flood on this shore
"It's gonna be...a glorious day. I feel my luck could change."
"The head of state, has called for my by name, but I don't have time for him."
Radiohead-Lucky.
"And in the naked light I saw
Ten thousand people, maybe more
People talking without speaking
People hearing without listening
People writing songs that voices never share
No one dared
Disturb the sound of silence.."
Feet on the side mirror
With a sunset in the rearview
I’m coming back
Back to the state; to a constant state of crisis
Because what do you do once you’re safe
And you find that everything you wanted
Is everything you hate?
Time hasn’t been kind
It’s been building up under our eyes
But we’ve got time still
We’ll figure it out
We’ve taken it this far so why stop now?
Show me some teeth
I want to feel it
I need something worth keeping a secret
I need something
When I'm gone, are you gonna miss me? Are you even listening? Do you even care about anything at all?
"colossal in tons, unknowing it wants
pacifier pacifies, yeah it pacifies"
Sleepwalk Capsules- At the Drive In.
"And in the naked light I saw
Ten thousand people, maybe more
People talking without speaking
People hearing without listening
People writing songs that voices never share
No one dared
Disturb the sound of silence.."
Promise me
Nothing that you said was a hyperbole
All the **** you said about loving me
Every day for eighteen months
Just say it's true
I'm sorry
It's just another product of anxiety
Bringing me to moments where I can't sleep
I lie awake and think about the worst things possible
I know that I
Want to be
By your side
But it's so hard
When we're not
In the same
State of mind
Tear down the walls that you build up inside
Do you know what I'm about to tell you?
I miss all the days that we would spend
Eating candy, watching TV in the bed
Back when I was happy
I was cool, wasn't tortured
By this thing inside my head
I felt therе was purpose in my life
When I could bе who I wanted all the time
Now I sit in silence
Wishing that I could hear you say my name
Once more for the books, just one time
Keep it locked up in the back part of my mind
Maybe I wouldn't feel what I used to feel
When I stare deep in the ocean of your eyes
These days, I'm afraid of everything
I'm afraid that everything may never change
So I lay down on the floor
And think about you and how you say my name
How you say my name
When I'm gone, are you gonna miss me? Are you even listening? Do you even care about anything at all?
If I'm ever gonna kick these blues
Then I'm gonna have to give up some of these things
Lord you know I may be wrong
But something deep down inside my soul still turns me on
If I'm ever gonna see the light
Then I'm gonna have to reach so high
Lord you know I may be wrong
But something way down inside my soul still turns me on
So can you **** off? I don't need your hand
You thought it was love, baby
I was just playin' so
Good luck with your next boyfriend
'Cause I don't want a girl, I ain't even want a ma-
I was tryna make a living
Well I did, and now I don't wanna live at all
And you wonder why I'm distant
My only friend is whatever I was trippin' off
Yeah, but you would never get it
You turned my personality into some kind of fetish
You think it's all copacetic
I hit your pen and then I lost it
Ever since then, I've been manic and exhausted
Think I wanna die and I can't keep my mind off it
Twenty-four-seven headache and I'm always nauseous
Cut my losses, 'cause I can never tеll if it's somethin' I really wanted
Would you **** off?
I don't need your hand
You thought it was lovе, baby
I was just playin' so
Good luck with your next boyfriend
'Cause I don't want a girl, I ain't even want a man
I just, I just wanna be dead (Don't be that brash)
I just, I just wanna be dead (Like)
Yeah, I just wanna be dead (Real fr— Wake the **** up)
I just, I just wanna be dead (Who you really call— Real fr)
Run away from me, baby, block my cell
Judgment Day is comin', I'ma rot in hell and
I'm too ****in' cowardly to off myself
All the talk don't help, you just not gon-
Okay, I started all this **** as an outlet
Now everybody plug in where they mouth is
So I burned out, all my thoughts were clouded
I was shocked by the **** that I shouted
And an old friend told me that I sold out
So I laughed and said, "All I wear is argyle"
'Cause you'd think that maybe I'd set the bar too high
When I'm strugglin' to find a way to waste my time
Just **** off, I don't need your hand
You thought it was love, baby
I was just playin' so
Good luck with your next boyfriend
'Cause I don't want a girl, I ain't even want a man
I just, I just wanna be dead (****)
I just wanna be dead
I just, I just wanna be dead
I just wanna be dead
When I'm gone, are you gonna miss me? Are you even listening? Do you even care about anything at all?
