why bother?!

[Darkwings44]

I HATE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *CRIES*

[Darkwings44]

She faked her death just to fuck me over!!!!!!!! *cries* I would have never do that to her!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hell I fucking worshiped the air that she breathed and the floor that she walked on and she did this to me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Darkwings44]

I don’t know how to talk to kaci right now…… I feel too munch hurt right now…… I need someone I relie on…. I need anorexia… im sorry but I feel like shit!!!!!!!! *cries*

[Cacoethes]

Anorexia is a life threatening illness. Not a friend. You shouldn't be making light of it.
Plus that post is extremely triggering. I think you should delete it. I've reported it anyway.

[[Luna]]

I have also reported as that post isn't helpful to anyone.

I'm sorry your friend faked their own death. You must feel very betrayed.

[Darkwings44]

im sorry i deletled the post myself.... imsorry...

[Darkwings44]

ive decided even if she did betray me that i will stilll allways love her im a loyal type of person... no matter how hurt that i am i will still love her allways

[Darkwings44]

im feeling very unloveable......

[[Luna]]

It's great that you are so loyal but please be careful. This doesn't sound like the healthiest of friendships. You don't want to keep getting hurt.

[Darkwings44]

ill try....

[Darkwings44]

https://www.recoveryourlife.com/foru...44#post4283244

[Darkwings44]

Im thinking about stuff death.....suicide.....thoughts keep coming im really overwelmed with feelings and thoughts who would miss me anyways? no one will.…... im nothing this world needs……… I just cause people hearts to fill with hate for me……… i need to die.... but i cant do it right.....

[Darkwings44]

The following content has been hidden - Reason : =) im fine!!!

im not good..... im not sunshine....im not the happyness kind of person.... im the darkness im the moon. im losing hope that i can be happy and find joy.......... thoughts of death and suicide keep coming and im overwhelmed by them....and im feeling alone because of just everything..... my dad.... the staff..... when i see the other cleints (the people that live with me in the group home) all i see is my future..... not getting a job..... not going to collage.........no being in love...... not having children..... but just living in a group home old and alone with nothing except the group home and the workshop (what they calling the day hab but its basically a adult day care center for disabled people)..........

[Pomegranate]

It sounds very scary, but it’s also worth noting many members have been in supported living/‘care homes’ and also ‘day Hab’ and now live very normal lives. I won’t name those other members but I myself am one of more than a handful I know of. And also think it’s worth noting that everyone is different, including people who receive support so just because one life isn’t what you want, doesn’t mean your life will be the same....

[Darkwings44]

yeah it really is scary
they have?..... i thought i was the only one who was.....
ohh ok

[Cacoethes]

I'm been in a supported housing and have now lived on my own for 8 years. I used to have a job too. Only had to quit that because of my epilepsy.
And I'm going back to studying soon

So yeah. It's possible, like Emma said

[Darkwings44]

wow thats awesome!!!!!!!

[Darkwings44]

I think I need to die……….. but I don’t know how to do it because I fail every single time….
='(

[one_step_closer]

Maybe it means you're not actually meant to die that way. What's behind the suicidal feelings? I think you need to try to build things in your life to see if you can move away from the suicidal feelings.

[Darkwings44]

the staff and thoughts of death.......