(authors notes: there's alot going on in this chapter (theres two songs in this one and theres a bear) i have the bear irl (different name though) i hope its okay with everyone *hugs everyone!!!!* =) stay safe ok? )
(music link:
https://youtu.be/xUhT8LGCgtE )
we arrived together at school while music by hidden in plain view played in the background late kaci redid my make up before in her car.. "thank you kaci" i said "youre so welcome lovely" she replied sweetly while we were walking from the office after getting our late slips a group of kids stopped and said "hey kaci!! what are you doing?" "nothing just walking to my class with my friend." "dont you know who your walking with??!! "one of kids asked "um.. yeah my friend." there was little anger brewing in her voice. "whatever kaci. hey i heard that your step brothers coming into town" "who? blake?......" i saw a kind of darkness in her eyes the other kids didnt notice the look in her eyes... they continued saying " yeah!! isnt he a college junior or something?" i just felt anger. so much anger ... how did they not notice her? why did they not care about her? instead of talking bullshit they should be concerned about her ask her if she was ok!!!! something!!!!!!!! i wanted to yell out
stop talking about that ***** and focus on her for one secound you f*cking ***** heads!!!!!! but didnt. instead i hastly said "we have to get to class bye" then grabbed her by the hand and took her to the library...i held her in my arms and she with tears in her eyes cried and whispered something to me that i would never forget "i was raped..." it took all i had not to try and kill the person who hurted her and i really wanted to. she and i sat down her still in my arms on the fragile soild ground together....
the bell rang for lunch and as she lay her head on on my shoulder quietly sleeping i decided in that moment to allways protect and to love kaci with all of my heart soul and being....even if she didnt love me back i would allways protect her.. no matter what happens i will be her guardian. while i enjoyed watching her sleep on my shoulder i sent a email to rainbow on my phone.....
dark_night44: hey rainbow how did your surprise go for your friend? i told my friend about my dad and she understood and listened and she even redid my make up for me!!! i just found out something.... something that i would have never ever guessed about her.... lets just say she has been through what you have..... and her other so called friends dont pay enough attention to even notice what shes going through i mean its really frustrating!!!!!! they are such dumb heads!!!!! i hope that she will be alright *sighs* i really do hope she will be alright......
love always dark_night44
i then heard a email alert from kacis phone i didnt want to wake her up so i looked in her purse and found a bloody razor and her phone had a email alert on it before i was able to find out who was it from..... she started to wake up i put her phone in the purse and closed it before she woke up..... "hey... was that your phone or mine? im sorry i fell asleep on you" she said as she smiled sweetly "thats ok!!! i think it was yours...." i replied back smiling while thinking i really want to see her smile allways.... she began reading what was on her phone and she smiled at first and she then started to cry i held her in my arms again and she sobbed saying "no....no...... it cant be......it cant be............" i was so confused at the moment i didnt know who sent her the email but i really wanted her to feel better i said full to the brim with real concern "hey whats wrong sweetie?" "i have to!!! theres another girl!!!!! god damn it all!!!! theres another girl!!!!!" i could see the pure raw emotion in her as she said those words... the hunger and deep desire in her eyes she then quickly as if on automatedly grabbed her purse she then runs out of the library i followed her into the restrooms almost immediately felt horror as i spoted her with razor in hand carving her upper thigh "stop please!!!!!!!! kaci talk to me!!!!!!!!!!!" i hit the stall door "what are you truely feeling kaci please just talk to me!!! please put the blade down!!! i promise everything will be ok!!!! so please dont cut!!!!!" i can hear her crying on the other side of the door...... then she opened the door..... and then she embraced me and i embraced her...
(2nd music link:
https://youtu.be/R1j9NASRQgU )
after i helped her with the wound i promised her that i would not tell anyone and when school was over we met at the entrance of the building and she took me home but i waited until i was sure that she had left the street and i told my mom i was going to the mall and that i would be back soon as i rode my bike i put on my music..... i went straight to build- a bear and made a bear for someone i love... my wish that i made on the heart was that she would be safe and loved and i named the bear "loved heart" after i made the bear and got the birth certificate for her i layed on my bed thinking about rainbow and kaci...
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i remember the first time we met.........
i was in the hospital classroom doing work when i felt some paper taped at the bottom of the desk drop and i unfolded it as i did i found that it was a note it said: for anyone who reads this hi im currently IP for what you are probably admitted for too i tried to take my life now im not going to say some bull about how" you should be thankful to god that you woke this mourning" and that" youre too good looking to do this to yourself" and all that kind of crap when theres are so many things in this world that are screwed up and as dark as hell and that the reasons why we all here are vaild no matter what anyone else says NEVER let them take away the truth from you ok? what i am going to say is my DLS is that im a rape survivor and that im gay i hate myself so much its almost unbearable and that no matter what you put in this note i wont tell anyone so person reading this.... whats yours? -rainbow wings
i got out my pencil and starting a reply hi rainbow wings thank you so munch for not saying those things i get soo tried of hearing that bull!!! >_< and dont worry your secrets safe with me as well.... my dirty little secret is im abused, bullied and gay too hey wanna hear a joke? here it is why did the doc fail the psychiatry exam? cause he was too inpatient!!!!! =) i hope i made you laugh or at least made you smile!!! can we be friends? also i love your name!!! signed darknight i got some tape and taped the note back to the bottom of the desk and left when the bell rang.......
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