It was okay until someone in my family assumed I was going to be singer on the voice and in fact I am virtual audience member.
Have you ever confused a dream with life? Or stolen something when you have the cash? Have you ever been blue? Or thought your train moving while sitting still? Maybe I was just crazy. Maybe it was the 60's. Or maybe I was just a girl... interrupted.
I know what it's like to want to die. How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit in but you can't. How you hurt yourself on the outside to try to kill the thing on the inside. I tried groups, didn't work out just made my depression a lot worse.
Things are a bit of a mess here. Still not in full lockdown, but we have been moved up a threat level to tier 3 from today. I don’t think anywhere here is bad enough to be tier 4/5, but we can’t see it being long before somewhere is and then we’ll be in full lockdown again.
I have still been managing to get food and stuff for my cat delivered from online. In person shops are a bit crazy and not really a thing for us so also getting everything I need from online, including stuff for school (in August it was an issue getting stuff for school because most places online were sold out of stuff amd we had to do in person shopping).
College this week has been in person because we are doing a nursery teaching degree and need to actually physically teach. That was scary because its all new and kids at that age don’t really understand social distancing. We got lots of kids wanting to hug us and we had to step away, that was hard as we are normally a fan of kid hugs. It was hard saying no.
I wouldn't say so Cat. It's a cliche but it's true, however
you feel is okay and this lockdown is going to make us feel all kinds of shizz. Do you know why you're worried about your apathy?
It’s weird and hard to explain. I’m good at suppressing my feelings until long after the event so I’m worried this will all hit me later that said though work is getting stressful because if people having to isolate.
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How are people coping with lockdown/the pandemic in general?
Stay safe <3
I think alright. We will see how it goes. Hope you are as well as can be.
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It was okay until someone in my family assumed I was going to be singer on the voice and in fact I am virtual audience member.
I get that Cat. It makes sense. I don't know what you do for work right now, but is there any way you can work from home if you need?
Unfortunately not, I work in a bakery in a town so we are a key service. I’m sure I’ll get through it, but it is stressful especially as we are starting to do Christmas things.
It's hard when the news seems to be everywhere anyway.
What do you think would help?
I'm struggling a bit.
I'm thankful I still get to go and see Jasmine but it's hard not being able to do anything else besides appointments.
I feel so lazy being stuck inside all the times. Though I do go for lots of walks.
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
In the last lockdown some exercise apps waived their fees and I think the Royal Academy of Dance did some free online ballet classes and other similar things. Or free zumba classes! Wondering if there's anything like that going on again now to give you something to do or something new to try, Beckie.
Camden - I am sorry you're struggling so much. Sending happy and hopeful thoughts your way.
Alison - that sounds super difficult and also upsetting tbh.
Cat - the joys of working somewhere that goes crazy over the holidays. Yikes.
Hopefully you can sort out work things.
Becky - it's hard to not be able to do the things that give you some structure and a sense of purpose. Be gentle with yourself.
I think I more or less adjusted to the actual lockdown by now, so I have freed some time and energy to worry about COVID in general I guess.
I'm trying to reduce how frequently I check on the news, but it's hard.
Legit had a dream the other day that I went into a shop without a mask and everyone got upset but I was super convinced it was okay to do. Woke up feeling terrible for thinking it's okay not to wear your mask. My brain is an idiot.
I don't know if that helps at all- just keep reminding yourself there are plenty of people out there who are working really hard on finding ways to stop the pandemic. People who are focused on that and who have expertise and special knowledge.
Let this medical human concentrate of their specialty and help you personally to feel better. Others are in charge of figuring out the getting sick and dying.
someone release me from this lockdown its no worse than being in hospital
Have you ever confused a dream with life? Or stolen something when you have the cash? Have you ever been blue? Or thought your train moving while sitting still? Maybe I was just crazy. Maybe it was the 60's. Or maybe I was just a girl... interrupted.
I know what it's like to want to die. How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit in but you can't. How you hurt yourself on the outside to try to kill the thing on the inside. I tried groups, didn't work out just made my depression a lot worse.
