why bother?! - Page 42

Darkwings44 · 23-07-2022, 10:39 PM

Alot has been going on since I was on here the last time....... i got COVID again for about maybe 2 or 3 weeks but now I'm negative

yay!!
A few days ago I got very mad at the staff and all the stuff that they do and I took a small object and tried to SH and I had it in my hand and the staff tried to get it from me and I closed my fist and wouldn't let go of the tool it wasn't until the staff threated to throw my mp3 player and break it that i finally let go of the tool and in that struggling she was hurt (hairline fracture in her hand) so the next day i talked to my therapist and I had told her about it and stuff that they say that was wrong and stuff that bothered me and then we talked about moving to a different place and stuff like that and then yesterday I talked to my mom about moving in with my family and she said that it will take time to show her that I would be better and I had until September to show her (because that's when we have to renew the contract) and also we talked about maybe going to college while i live with my parents
I'm really hoping it will all work out!!

nonperson · 23-07-2022, 11:04 PM

I hope so too, Darkwings. The place you're in now doesn't sound right for you.

Darkwings44 · 24-07-2022, 07:47 PM

thanks nonperson

Darkwings44 · 27-07-2022, 10:26 PM

I found out today that my mom is going to be picking me up at 2 on Friday and I'll be able to go on vacation and go out of town until August 9th!!!! I'm so excited!!!!

Unbreakable. · 27-07-2022, 10:27 PM

That is exciting!!!

Are you going somewhere nice?

Darkwings44 · 27-07-2022, 10:38 PM

Yeah!!!! we're ether going to Waco Texas or Fredericksburg Texas both places I've never been to so i can't wait for Friday!!!!

Unbreakable. · 27-07-2022, 10:41 PM

Awww I'm happy for you to get out of that place for a bit and do something nice :)

Darkwings44 · 27-07-2022, 10:52 PM

Thank you!!!!!!! <3

Darkwings44 · 27-07-2022, 11:02 PM

I asked my mom if i could bring my ipod or my laptop and she said that she had to ask the boss of the group home first I'm not sure that he would let me have my laptop...... but i really hope that I can at least bring my ipod touch though so I could be able to go on here during the time too! what would i do without you all!!!!!!!! <3 *hugs everyone*

Darkwings44 · 03-08-2022, 07:26 PM

i just talked to my mom about living at home (my idea was to volunteer at the library) and she just plainly said "you're not going to move back home." all my hope is gone now! i really want to SH soo badly right now!!!!!!! right now i feel triggered but i have nothing to SH with that i own so im thinking about stealing one of my sisters razors..... she has two so im preety sure she wont miss it if one comes up missing!!!!!

Pi.R^2 · 03-08-2022, 10:08 PM

Oh I can see how disappointing this must feel. Did she say anything else? I imagine it would be helpful for you to know what would have to change before she felt comfortable with you living at home.

I don't think stealing your sister's razor is a good idea. I imagine it would be noticed and that probably won't be helpful in convincing your mom that you're safe to live at home!

Darkwings44 · 05-08-2022, 06:09 PM

No she didn’t…….

I couldn’t steal it……… it was put out of my reach…..

The Worst Witch · 05-08-2022, 09:31 PM

Probably sensible.

Could you ask your mum what would need to change for you to be brought back home?

not_so_insig · 06-08-2022, 03:21 AM

I agree that it was probably for the best you couldn't access the razor.

I also agree with asking your mom what you can do to live at home. For example you may have not be actively SH/keeping yourself safe or showing more independence in self care ie regular bathing/doing the laundry. Then you know what needs to change and you can work towards more independence.

If your mom feels like living at home isn't the right solution for you is there a half way house between a group home and living independently? Unsure how your country/state works in regard the care system. I know that such schemes exist in the UK. It may be a better fit than a group home for you.

Darkwings44 · 09-08-2022, 11:03 PM

Oh…….

I don’t really know……….. I’ll try to look it up and see…..

Darkwings44 · 09-08-2022, 11:05 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by The Worst Witch

Probably sensible.

Could you ask your mum what would need to change for you to be brought back home?

I’m not sure if I can……….

Pi.R^2 · 11-08-2022, 08:41 AM

Why not? I thought you wanted to live at home?

Darkwings44 · 13-08-2022, 08:12 PM

i do.......but it might cause a argument and i dont want to make matters worse......... im sorry.......

Pi.R^2 · 15-08-2022, 11:31 PM

Well that’s of course up to you, but I know you’re not happy where you are and engaging in conversation about your options could be helpful in the long term.

The Worst Witch · 16-08-2022, 12:09 AM

Why would talking to your mum make matters worse? I guess it could end in an argument, but if you’re clear and concise about what you want to say it could ne a positive step. Could you write her a letter asking her? You might find that she responds well to your initiative in asking her what needs to change.