I don't know how to stop

[tamobhuuta]

Sorry you're feeling unwell. I actually find it easier not to SI when I'm physically unwell! How are you finding it? Keep fighting, you're on a good journey.

[wren_wyn]

I have a very cute cough, but other than that, I'm doing fine physically.

I haven't had any urges recently. Somehow. Maybe because school started again? I'm not sure. I honestly don't know how I'm still clean. I feel so mangled but I'm somehow standing at the same time. I don't know what changed in me, but I'm kind of happy about it, yet fearful, too. My thumb scarred from my accident. I'm glad it didn't get infected or do more damage than it could've. But it would've been nice for my last cut to not have scarred. Or maybe it's better since it was unintentional.

[wren_wyn]

I think I'm going mad. It's been 3 weeks, almost a whole month, but that's not the issue.

I'm stressed out, I'm putting all the blame on myself and I want to punish myself or make myself pay for it when I don't know how else to. There's rumors about me at school again, the same ones about me being gay, but now another one of my friends is involved. I'll get the same talking to that my parents have given me before of: "don't crap where you eat. we told you not to do this," etc etc.

I feel like I'm about to burst.