Have you ever confused a dream with life? Or stolen something when you have the cash? Have you ever been blue? Or thought your train moving while sitting still? Maybe I was just crazy. Maybe it was the 60's. Or maybe I was just a girl... interrupted.
I know what it's like to want to die. How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit in but you can't. How you hurt yourself on the outside to try to kill the thing on the inside. I tried groups, didn't work out just made my depression a lot worse.
I cannot believe that I've been so ungrateful in my life. I'll never forgive myself. How dumb.
Dude, you're in the middle of very srs bsns physical health shenanigans, surely you deserve a break from the self-criticism!!
I'm glad you're at least getting the treatment you need and I hope things go well with the surgery- have you had it yet?
We may not see eye to eye, but we can respect each other's opinions and find the truth in them.
Perhaps in those honest conversations, instead of demonising each other,
we might see each other as imperfect humans, doing our best. ~ Jodi Picoult
Surgery is Tuesday. Physio put me in a hoist so I can sit down on a chair. I managed 10 mins before I was sweating and shaking in agnoy.
The permanent staff are very good but the agency are a nightmare. I've been left alone in pain in the middle of the night because they couldn't be bothered to answer the bell.
Things are so shit. Catheter has given me a huge UTI. I can't. Scared and I feel so alone.
Mary, I am so, so sorry that you are in this pain. You honestly don't deserve any of it and I am sickened to hear that you have been let down by the agency staff. I wish there was something I could say or do to make things easier for you. Love you so much xx
Mary, is there someone who can come and visit you and help to support you in this??? It's Way too much for one person to deal with this alone. And to just be left alone in pain is inexcusable. I'm just thinking it'd be better if someone could speak up for you because you clearly have enough to deal with without having to complain over useless staff.