does my username have any meaning to you?

Just wondering, i joined this site years ago and hardly have ever been here. I gave myself this user name and i am wondering if it is still appropriate.

i am asking here for people to tell me what this name means. that is, what do you think i was thinking when i created it for myself. does it indicate anything?

i want to see if you can see me as i was hoping to convey myself back then. maybe i should change the name. maybe not. but if you have an idea i wish you’d tell me. whatever you think it is.... any guess is a good guess so go ahead. then i can decide to keep it or find a better one.

i’m just wondering what to do....