Coming up beyond belief
On this coronary thief
More than just a leitmotif
More chaotic, no relief
I'll describe the way I feel
Weeping wounds that never heal
Can the savior be for real
Or are you just my seventh seal?
No hesitation, no delay
You come on just like special K
Just like I swallowed half my stash
I never ever want to crash
No hesitation, no delay
You come on just like special K
Now you're back with dope demand
I'm on sinking sand
Gravity
No escaping gravity
Gravity
No escaping... not for free
I fall down... hit the ground
Make a heavy sound
Every time you seem to come around
I'll describe the way I feel
You're my new Achilles heel
Can this savior be for real
Or are you just my seventh seal?
No hesitation, no delay
You come on just like special K
Just like I swallowed half my stash
I never ever want to crash
No hesitation, no delay
You come on just like special K
Now you're back with dope demand
I'm on sinking sand
Gravity
No escaping gravity
Gravity
No escaping... not for free
I fall down... hit the ground
Make a heavy sound
Every time you seem to come around
The caution tape that you’ve wrapped around my brain
Has continued to stay as I’m waiting for a break
Constantly connecting dots
Trying my best, consuming facts
All I’ve learned what’s done is done
And you can not change the past
Helping or hurting?
I am numb
I haven’t felt anything in days
Confusion is key as I am locked inside
Or am I just really gone?
The caution tape wrapped around my brain
Has continued to stay
A constant strain right behind my face
I’m still waiting for a slight break
For a slight break
And I know we’re just different
I know we're just different
Keep drinking from the same cup
It’ll fill you up
It’ll keep you numb
Simplify the motions
Counteract the movements
Don’t think twice because this is love
This is love
This is love
The caution tape wrapped around my brain
Has continued to stay
A constant strain right behind my face
I’m still waiting for a slight break
You are caffeine in my bloodstream
You are the energy hidden in-between two muscles sleeping
Please don’t wake me up
I miss myself too much
I miss myself too much
I miss myself too much
So please don't wake me up
Don't wake me up
'Cause all I have is patience
We all lose strength some days
I’ve been waiting for a slight break
When I'm gone, are you gonna miss me? Are you even listening? Do you even care about anything at all?
Time to pass you to the test Hanging on my lover's breath. Always coming second best
Pictures of my lover's chest.
Get through this night, there are no second chances.
This time I might...
To ask the sea for answers.
Always falling to the floor, softer than it was before.
Dog boy, media whore, it's who the hell you take me for.
Give up this fight, there are no second chances.
This time I might...
To ask the sea for answers.
These bonds are shackle free, wrapped in lust and lunacy. Tiny touch of jealousy, these bonds are shackle free.
Get through this night, there are no second chances.
This time I might....
To ask the sea for answers.
These bonds are shackle free
These bonds are shackle free
These bonds are shackle free
These bonds are shackle free
Get through this, there are no second chances.
This time.
Help me, it's like the walls are caving in
Sometimes I feel like giving up
But I just can't
It isn't in my blood
Laying on the bathroom floor, feeling nothing
I'm overwhelmed and insecure, give me something
I could take to ease my mind slowly
Just have a drink and you'll feel better
Just take her home and you'll feel better
Keep telling me that it gets better
Does it ever?
Help me, it's like the walls are caving in
Sometimes I feel like giving up
No medicine is strong enough
Someone help me
I'm crawling in my skin
Sometimes I feel like giving up
But I just can't
It isn't in my blood
It isn't in my blood
I'm looking through my phone again, feeling anxious
Afraid to be alone again, I hate this
I'm trying to find a way to chill, can't breathe, oh
Is there somebody who could
Help me, it's like the walls are caving in
Sometimes I feel like giving up
No medicine is strong enough
Someone help me
I'm crawling in my skin
Sometimes I feel like giving up
But I just can't
It isn't in my blood
It isn't in my blood
I need somebody now
I need somebody now
Someone to help me out
I need somebody now
Help me, it's like the walls are caving in Sometimes I feel like giving up
But I just can't
It isn't in my blood
It isn't in my blood
It isn't in my blood
I need somebody now
It isn't in my blood
I need somebody now
It isn't in my blood
I've toed a line
Kicked up enough sand but I still can't understand
Your absence over water seeking land
I thought you'd be there
I hoped you would
Hawk in my head lead me straight back to the woods
Relate until we're tired
Or roam until we're humble
It was early into our love
We got scared and became honest
Did it go missing?
Or have we lost it
It's nothing on you
But this weight won't carry
It's nothing on you
But this weight won't carry
It's nothing on you
But this weight won't carry
But this weight won't carry
But this weight won't carry
Was love there in those dark days
When we needed it
Was love there in those dark days
When we needed it
Like I need it now?
I've toed this line
Got it wrong so many times
But I still can't understand
We're in this together
We're in this together
I thought you'd be there
I hoped you would
Hawk in my head lead me straight back to my girls
We relate
We'll grow old in these woods
Relate until we're tired
Or roam until we're humble
It was early into our love
We got scared and became honest
Relate until we're tired
Or roam until we're humble
It was early into our love
We got scared and became honest
When I'm gone, are you gonna miss me? Are you even listening? Do you even care about anything at all?
I'm gonna put my palate down
And rip the skin right off my mouth
There seems to be a problem with the main connection
Someone's torn the wires out
Stuck in a place where all the teachers can't be trusted
Everything revolves around their appetite
Decisions become more abnormal
The more attention it gets paid
I'm the number one supporter of the first edition
With all the original errors made
Something started happening to the people I love
None of them have spoken to me since
The way they used to back when I was just a little boy
It's different
My pulse it is gone
Rapidly beating the window
With my hands
It takes time
Why can't I get anyone's attention out there
It takes time
I get too caught up
With counting all the things I can't do right
I'm just around the corner from the crucifixion
Just around the corner from the crucifixion
Something started happening to the people I love
None of them have been close to me since
The way they used to back when I was just a little boy
Deliberate
My pulse it is gone
Rapidly beating the window
With my hands
Why can't I get anyone's attention
(It takes time)
Out there
(It takes time)
We can't prepare for war
And prevent it at the same time
(It takes time)
Though I've chosen the sign
I don't know where the line is
Cause it takes time
Can't have it all at once
It takes time
When I'm gone, are you gonna miss me? Are you even listening? Do you even care about anything at all?
Cause even after all this time, I still wonder,
Why I can't move on,
Just the way you did so easily.
I just hope you're lying next to somebody,
Who knows to love you like me.
Must be a good reason that you're gone.
Every now and then I think you might want me to
Come show up at your door.
But I'm just too afraid that I'll be wrong.
Don't wanna know,
If you're looking into her eyes,
If she's holding onto you so tight,
The way I did before.
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What's the use in begging you to stay?
I'm not trying to save us anymore.
Cut me loose, cause you're too far away.
To make me feel better, make it alright.
To give me your sweater, hold my hand tight.
Nothing in common, nothing to lose.
Nothing but problems between me and you.
I'll give all my weapons to you.
We've said it all, no more bones to break.
I'm done thinking that we might just spark enough.
We're broken glass, waiting to be washed away.
Giving up doesn't always mean you're weak.
Sometimes it just means you're strong enough to let go.
They say don't let them in.
Close your eyes and clear your thoughts again.
But when I'm all alone,
They show up on their own.
Cause inner demons fight their battles with fire.
Inner demons don't play by the rules.
They say just push them down, just fight them harder.
Why would you give up on it so soon?
So angels, angels please just keep on fighting.
Angels don't give up on me today.
Cause the demons, they are there.
They just keep biting.
Cause inner demons just won't go away.
So angels please, hear my prayer.
Life is pain, life's not fair.
So angels please, please stay here.
Take the pain, take the fear.
They say it won't be hard.
But they can't see the battles of my heart.
But when I turn away,
The demons seem to stay.
Cause inner demons don't play well with angels
They cheat and lie and steal and break and bruise.
Angels please protect me from these rebels.
This is a battle I don't want to lose.
Giving up doesn't always mean you're weak.
Sometimes it just means you're strong enough to let go.
Cause all you have to say,
Is that it's gonna get better, it's gonna get better,
But it never does.
And all you have to say,
Is that it's gonna get better, it's gonna get better,
But it never does.
It never does.
It never does.
I'm not sick with depression.
I just have all the symptoms, and all the questions.
My thoughts can't stabilize.
Feelings I can't verbalize.
And all you have to say,
Is that it's gonna get better, it's gonna get better,
But it never does.
And all you have to say,
Is that it's gonna get better, it's gonna get better,
But it never does.
It never does.
It never does.
It never does.
Giving up doesn't always mean you're weak.
Sometimes it just means you're strong enough to let go.
I'm going under and this time I fear there's no one to save me
This all or nothing really got a way of driving me crazy
I need somebody to heal
Somebody to know
Somebody to have
Somebody to hold
It's easy to say
But it's never the same I guess I kinda liked the way you numbed all the pain
Now the day bleeds
Into nightfall
And you're not here
To get me through it all
I let my guard down
And then you pulled the rug
I was getting kinda used to being someone you loved
I'm going under and this time I fear there's no one to turn to
This all or nothing way of loving got me sleeping without you
Now, I need somebody to know
Somebody to heal
Somebody to have
To know how it feels
It's easy to say
But it's never the same I guess I kinda liked the way you helped me escape
Now the day bleeds
Into nightfall
And you're not here
To get me through it all
I let my guard down
And then you pulled the rug
I was getting kinda used to being someone you loved
And I tend to close my eyes when it hurts sometimes
I fall into your arms
I'll be safe in your sound 'til I come back around
For now the day bleeds
Into nightfall
And you're not here
To get me through it all
I let my guard down
And then you pulled the rug
I was getting kinda used to being someone you loved
Giving up doesn't always mean you're weak.
Sometimes it just means you're strong enough to let go.
Awake to find the water rushing in through cracks in the ceiling
Grab your oxygen supply and leave everything behind
Dive in
Avoiding all debris, swim to the bottom of the sea
Find some shelter try and breathe, we could be here for a while
This house was shifting in our sleep from right under our feet, down to the ocean floor Stay strong, we are with you all along, spotting you for sharks in the shadows of the rocks
Day dreams of summer trees, and your hair in the breeze
Witness the life in the tall grass, let's do this more often
The ground shakes, as I awake, under rocks on the sea floor where our house laid
Where just a few days ago I made you breakfast in bed
But the house caved into the ground when the ocean swallowed it down to the bottom
The tank's running out of oxygen I have been rendered to shark feed
No help in sight, but sharp teeth and an appetite
I see their eyes surround me
Stayed at home for way too long
Now I'm destined for the deep blue sea
No help in sight
Big appetites
I'll be fine for one more night
Wait until the coast is clear, you can float your way to the surface
Keep a wary eye well fixated on the distance or you'll end your days counting hours in the bottom of the sea
Wait until the coast is clear, you can float your way to surface where you'll end your days with purpose
Keep a wary eye well fixated on the distance, you'll be on you're way out
When I'm gone, are you gonna miss me? Are you even listening? Do you even care about anything at all?
I woke up today
To find myself in the other place
With a trail of footprints
From where I ran away
It seems everything I've heard
Just might be true
And you know me
(well you think you do)
Sometimes, I have everything - yet I wish I felt something
Lift my head up from the foreign ground I lay upon
Waking in the dark end of the longest day
Cold and broken, still I haven't slept as well as this in days
Walking on these feet for what now feels like centuries
The City streets still sing into my inner ears
Burnt out, scared and bruised but I just made through - onto
Blurry thoughts of times, in buildings I have left behind
Disappear like mist under the morning sun
Nature takes me back
Back to all the childhood stories that you told, when we still had a home
Dare I go right off the precipice, following the footsteps of no one else?
Found myself between routine and heartache
Knowing it was not a life to lead
Cold and all alone
Still I feel more at home
Sleeping rough under this tree
Than back in District 3
When I'm gone, are you gonna miss me? Are you even listening? Do you even care about anything at all?
Died last night in my dreams
All the machines
Had been disconnected
Time was thrown at the wind
And all of my friends
Had been disaffected
Now, I'm searching for trust
In a city of rust
A city of vampires
Tonight, Elvis is dead
And everyone's spread
And love is a satire
And now I know my heart is a ghost town
My heart is a ghost town
There's no one left in the world
I'm gunslingin'
Don't give a **** if I go
Down, down, down
I got a voice in my head that keeps singing
Oh, my heart is a ghost town
My heart is a ghost town
Oh, my heart is a ghost town
(Said, my heart)
My heart is a ghost town
Prop open the door
I can actually see my breath tonight
But that doesn't mean I'm breathing
Crack a smile just for the sake of it
This could take a while
A long while
Silence is golden, especially in this case
I'm not too sure that I want it to be this way
Open mouth, closed eyes
No words are escaping
It's all a blur
It's too dark to see
Ain't it pretty the way it all streaks together at night?
Together at night
I think it's time to turn around
I really want to go home tonight
I think it's time to turn around
I really want to go home tonight
I feel like this is going nowhere
Try to think of something quick
And trust the direction of the driver
No lights, no signs
I'm at a loss for words
No lights, no signs
I'm at a loss for words
Now conversation sparks
What an easy way to break the ice
Now conversation sparks
What an easy way to break the ice
When I'm gone, are you gonna miss me? Are you even listening? Do you even care about anything at all?
What's the matter Mary Jane, you had a hard day
As you place the don't disturb sign on the door
You lost your place in line again, what a pity
You never seem to want to dance anymore
It's a long way down
On this roller coaster
The last chance streetcar
Went off the track
And you're on it
I hear you're counting sheep again Mary Jane
What's the point of trying to dream anymore
I hear you're losing weight again Mary Jane
Do you ever wonder who you're losing it for
Well it's full speed baby
In the wrong direction
There's a few more bruises
If that's the way
You insist on heading
Please be honest Mary Jane
Are you happy
Please don't censor your tears
You're the sweet crusader
And you're on your way
You're the last great innocent
And that's why I love you
So take this moment Mary Jane and be selfish
Worry not about the cars that go by
All that matters Mary Jane is your freedom
Keep warm my dear, keep dry
Tell me
Tell me
What's the matter Mary Jane...
?When words become unclear, I shall focus with photographs. When images become inadequate, I shall be content with silence.?
? Ansel Adams
when deadbolts awake you from deja vu dreams,
at four in the morning you know where I'll be.
out running red lights asleep at the wheel.
the sirens feed my nightmares,
I just close my eyes and I'm already here;
its already too late.
I know its nothing but lies,
but they sound so sincere;
I find them too hard to hate.
and she calls from the doorway "stolen water is sweet,
so let's drink it in the darkness if you know what I mean"
and she calls from the doorway "stolen water is sweet,
so let's drink it in the darkness if you know what I mean"
and I'm almost sure
that I've been here before,
that this is not the first time I've stood in front of this door,
with an overwhelming feeling that I shouldn't go in,
but it seems this is a battle that I never could win.
and you!
my true love!
you call from the hilltop.
you call through the streets,
"Darling don't you know,
the water is poison."
and I say!
"Come on and give me my poison."
what have I done?
is it too late to save me from this place?
from the depths of the grave?
we all are those ..
who thought we were brave.
what have I done?
It barks at no one else
But me
Like it's seen
A ghost
I guess it's seen the sparks
A-flowin'
No one else
Would know
Hey man, slow down
Slow down
Idiot, slow down
Slow down
Sometimes I get overcharged
That's when you
See sparks
They ask me where the hell
I'm going?
At a thousand feet per second
Hey man, slow down
Slow down
Idiot, slow down
Slow down
Hey man, slow down
Slow down
Idiot, slow down
Slow down
