1) I went for an eight mile walk with the dogs on footpaths I had not walked before (except for the uphill bit which I've done before) and we didn't get horrendously lost like I normally do!
2) I have eaten really healthily today. A big breakfast in preparation for my walk, and then a portion of chilli that I made ages ago and froze and forgot about! And fruit as snacks on my walk.
3) I'm now having ice cream :D (a normal ok size bowlful, not binge eating) And I'm watching Shrek which is one of my favourite films ever!
1. I got a lot of bracelet done today so did well distracting
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In Jenna-land:
I'm nearly finished my jigsaw!
It is nice and warm and I don't have boil myself in long sleeves because no one else is home [ALL the abandonment issues, but putting a positive spin on it!]
1. I have just been informed by the people running the summer school that I will be working at that they are going to pay my travel costs despite my traveling from a different city!
2. I am enjoying reading my textbook despite having been dreading it. Seems that I actually find geology really interesting
It's not quite finished, and I should have used a darker grey for the elephants but yes.
& Jigsaws are awesome, good luck finishing!
Today
- I sat in the sun and had a nice snooze
- I finished off yesterdays salad which was amazingg, so nom [M&S Chicken & Bacon salad with the lettuce if anyone wants to nom this awesomeness]
There will always be a happy ending. If its not happy then its not yet the end.
- my bff who decided that I need to do something active and 'invited' me to go for an hour long walk with her and then ride my bike back to my home
- that my bff let me convince her that she should eat some of the cake my mom made today instead of eating ice cream
You survived the abuse.
You're gonna survive the recovery.
1. took all my vitamins, made it to work, haven't thrown up yet.
2. told my mom about my miscarriage three years ago. that was really hard to bring up, because it was due to drug use, and it's one of those things that eats away inside of me from time to time, so I am actually really proud of myself for speaking to her about it, just letting her know that it's a sad thing in my life right now (esp when there's other issues triggering the thoughts, the ex i was with at the time expecting baby with new gf, etc.) and it felt like a huge load was lifted off my shoulders that she now knows. So, as sad as it is, yay me!!
3. Oh! I also finally got the courage to shave my head into a mohawk of sorts last night! I've been wanting to do it for the longest time but just chickened out. Granted, it was in the midst of a serious manic episode, but Ahhh!!! My head feels sooo free!! Hahah.
Last edited by pandachan : 23-07-2012 at 02:55 PM.
Reason: ooh! addition.
I have decided that continuing to be a ball of woe this week is not helpful so I have come up with a plan for every single day including seeing some friends
I have also booked my car in for it's MOT (things like that really stress me out so yay! Go me).
I am going to see my grandma this afternoon to do some work on her memory book. It's like a baby book but backwards I guess.
Life is about love, last minutes and lost evenings,
About fire in our bellies and furtive little feelings,
And the aching amplitudes that set our needles all a-flickering,
And help us with remembering that the only thing that's left to do is live.
