How are you REALLY feeling?

[pixie_pixel]

barely holding on here

i have this on off awful feeling that i am sometimes being deliberately ignored by a ''friend'' i have some idea why they sometimes ignore me but not 100% sure so sat here like why can't they just tell me is really, really

super awkward

[Straight 3]

I think its becoming more apparent each day that goes by that I won't be able to turn this situation around. Looking (too far) ahead my future appears immensely bleak. I am completely drained. The game of life is relentless and I haven't the energy. Its all too much and I just can't catch a break.

[Straight 3]

A little better than last night somewhat, maybe a bit. Stuck inside too much lately and the walls are closing in. Agoraphobia is getting the best of me as of late sad to say. Its been so nice outside and being stuck in the house only make my depression/anxiety worse. So much on my mind and worry and panic about my future if things don't change, doesn't look too promising to say the very least.

[Straight 3]

Like I never stood much of a chance anyway. I've fallen through the cracks in the system and nobody could care less whether or not I dead or alive. I'm so sick and tired (both physically and mentally) from everything. It's just too late to fix anything now and deep down, even though I realize it, I can't accept it.

[CaptainB2]

Literally just waiting to die at this point.

[Straight 3]

So very done!

[Straight 3]

Awful!!!

[dark_angel1720]

Pressured and generally empty.

[nonperson]

Sleepy... blobby... but mostly hurty… =(

[LovedSecureFree]

I feel generally overwhelmed, anxious and lonely. I have a loving a hubby and a wonderful church but since antenatal classes (started this week) I've been feeling down. It feels like something is wrong with me.

[nonperson]

Not looking forward to work tomorrow. Really wish I could just stay in bed.

[Straight 3]

Paranoid (extremely so). Feeling everyone and the entire system is against me at every turn. I feel as I'm being set up by people that are in charge of my care. I wish (truly) that I could say and be honest that I only feel this way (only a feeling). I'm up against a system that is designed for me to fail. I am not so deluded to see people personally again me. They couldn't care less about me, they don't even realize they are also being used by the system.

Maybe the problem is acceptance. I can't accept this (or don't want to). I 'fall for' the BS that is all smoke and mirrors and utter lies, that are (would be) all too convincing to someone that is of the expecting help (an deserving so), all too ready and willing and lined up reaching out their hands for help to those prepared to bite it off at every turn.

I'm so tired both physically end mentally and drained from playing this game of life.

[Spoons]

Stressed out with terrifying life decisions.

[Straight 3]

Somewhat content today with everything and myself. Saw my therapist yesterday and he said he does care about me and wished me to do better. Wants me to consider inpatient again, because mostly due to being suicidal everyday throughout the day at diff times. Its getting sometimes hopeless and I told him I think about drinking myself to death often and I don't really want to go out that way. Must avoid at all cost.

Today wasn't bad, because I was able (for the first time in a while) to shut out the world and people and just enjoy my own company and nature. The trees were pretty and the sun and wind was just right, walked a little, just enough. I liked being out and not having to concern myself with other peoples drama. My own (overly) dramatic existence is enough for me to manage. Not sure why today was any different that any other, maybe I just put everything on the back burner; so to speak.

[Straight 3]

Was able to not overthink and over-reflect about life and failures. Lived for the day, I guess. Pushed them aside. They hit me often and I dismissed them as nagging thoughts. Some things I've little or no control and I can't go back in time, should try to adapt to future and acceptance maybe.

[yoyogirl]

Rejected by everyone that everyone hates me

[[Luna]]

Anxious
Overwhelmed
Agitated
Low

[glitterfairy]

Sad
Upset
Fustrated
Had enough

[nonperson]

Guilty, ashamed...

[DeadRoses]

Lost
Broken
Hiding