Vulnerable. But they've now come up with a plan that means I can get out of here, so that's good, right? Only thing is, they'll want me to stop wanting to fly.
What's the plan? What's making you not want to let go of wanting to fly? Is it really your want? I suppose we all want things but shouldn't persist in trying to achieve them if they are dangerous and impossible.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
we thought it was the voices who told you about flying. and that that was separate from what you believed. so you are saying the voices believe you can fly AND you believe you can fly?
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You can't always keep it separate.
This is happening, this is part of you.
okay. but if the voices weren't telling nyou to anymore, and they said you can't fly, or just didn't say anything at all, would you still believe you can fly?
what we're asking is what YOU believe - without the input of the voices.
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You can't always keep it separate.
This is happening, this is part of you.
It's possible to get to that place. You have had voices tell you wrong things before and managed to get the right treatment to quiet them and let go of those beliefs. It sounds like some different treatments are being offered and hopefully they will be useful. For now, can you try and hold off from trying to fly and give things a chance to change? I know that will be hard though.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
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I phoned my CPN. He was helpful. But he also said the psychologist I was seeing for therapy had told him something I'd said that was concerning and he wants to talk about it when he comes to see me next week! I have no idea what I said![/quote]
Turns out the very concerning thing was just whether the voices therapy module was helping or hindering with the voices.
I'm not sure the voices are definitely being nice to you - if they're still encouraging you that you can fly it sounds like they're trying to get you into trouble or get you hurt.
Do you have any access to psychologist support in hospital? It sounds like you could do with an opportunity to talk things through as well as them looking at medication.
I told an HCA that I was worried the Devil had warned them all to poison me because I'm going to turn into an evil angel. He told me the Devil hadn't told them to do anything, and they wouldn't even if someone did tell them. But he was concerned and got the duty doctor to talk to me. She told me to keep distracting.
It was like the thought was put in my head? So it wasn't quite the same as the voices, though it used their language and tone, but it didn't sound like one of my own thoughts either. Like someone inserted the thought? Then the thought stuck and the voices got involved and have taken ownership of it. Does that even make sense?
I can understand that feeling but no thoughts can be put in your head, you are in charge of your thoughts. Intrusive thoughts are a thing but they still come from you deep down. You have had your own beliefs like this before. How are you feeling today?
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.