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Old 27-08-2024, 06:44 PM   #81
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How are you feeling about having talked? I think it is a good step. Sorry the nurse wasn't very understanding.





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Old 28-08-2024, 04:00 PM   #82
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Vulnerable. But they've now come up with a plan that means I can get out of here, so that's good, right? Only thing is, they'll want me to stop wanting to fly.



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Old 28-08-2024, 05:56 PM   #83
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What's the plan? What's making you not want to let go of wanting to fly? Is it really your want? I suppose we all want things but shouldn't persist in trying to achieve them if they are dangerous and impossible.





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Old 28-08-2024, 06:49 PM   #84
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Increase AP, change AD, maybe try ECT if med changes don't work.

If you knew you could fly, wouldn't you go to great lengths to try it?



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Old 28-08-2024, 08:14 PM   #85
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question for clarity -

we thought it was the voices who told you about flying. and that that was separate from what you believed. so you are saying the voices believe you can fly AND you believe you can fly?



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Old 28-08-2024, 08:28 PM   #86
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Yes, the voices started it, now I believe the voices.



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Old 28-08-2024, 09:08 PM   #87
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okay. but if the voices weren't telling nyou to anymore, and they said you can't fly, or just didn't say anything at all, would you still believe you can fly?

what we're asking is what YOU believe - without the input of the voices.



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Old 28-08-2024, 09:35 PM   #88
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What evidence do you have that the voices are trustworthy/ speak the truth? Could they be lying about flying?




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Old 29-08-2024, 10:26 AM   #89
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Auror's question: no, I don't think I would believe it without the voices, messages etc.



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Old 29-08-2024, 12:44 PM   #90
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It's possible to get to that place. You have had voices tell you wrong things before and managed to get the right treatment to quiet them and let go of those beliefs. It sounds like some different treatments are being offered and hopefully they will be useful. For now, can you try and hold off from trying to fly and give things a chance to change? I know that will be hard though.





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Old 30-08-2024, 10:31 AM   #91
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I phoned my CPN. He was helpful. But he also said the psychologist I was seeing for therapy had told him something I'd said that was concerning and he wants to talk about it when he comes to see me next week! I have no idea what I said![/quote]

Turns out the very concerning thing was just whether the voices therapy module was helping or hindering with the voices.



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Old 30-08-2024, 06:24 PM   #92
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I'm not sure the voices are definitely being nice to you - if they're still encouraging you that you can fly it sounds like they're trying to get you into trouble or get you hurt.

Do you have any access to psychologist support in hospital? It sounds like you could do with an opportunity to talk things through as well as them looking at medication.



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Old 30-08-2024, 07:51 PM   #93
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I think there is a psychologist, I think i met her in passing, but no one has mentioned a meeting.



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Old 31-08-2024, 11:53 AM   #94
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Before it was put on pause, were you finding the therapy you were doing helpful? Maybe you could ask about seeing the psychologist.


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Old 31-08-2024, 05:44 PM   #95
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I can't really remember, the last few months are a bit blurry.



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Old 01-09-2024, 02:45 PM   #96
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I told an HCA that I was worried the Devil had warned them all to poison me because I'm going to turn into an evil angel. He told me the Devil hadn't told them to do anything, and they wouldn't even if someone did tell them. But he was concerned and got the duty doctor to talk to me. She told me to keep distracting.



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Old 01-09-2024, 06:48 PM   #97
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Where did that belief come from? Sounds scary. I hope you were able to be reassured. Distraction is good but I know sometimes it's not enough.





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Old 01-09-2024, 07:55 PM   #98
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It was like the thought was put in my head? So it wasn't quite the same as the voices, though it used their language and tone, but it didn't sound like one of my own thoughts either. Like someone inserted the thought? Then the thought stuck and the voices got involved and have taken ownership of it. Does that even make sense?



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Old 02-09-2024, 12:17 PM   #99
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I can understand that feeling but no thoughts can be put in your head, you are in charge of your thoughts. Intrusive thoughts are a thing but they still come from you deep down. You have had your own beliefs like this before. How are you feeling today?





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Old 02-09-2024, 12:58 PM   #100
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I've got ward rounds, I'm dead nervous.



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