Originally Posted by Pi.R^2
Unless you went out coughing on strangers after you tested positive, then I don't think people are going to get sick because of you!
In my rational, adult mind I know this but it hard to remember this when the memories and flashbacks are strong. I feel small, panicked and scared. The demons show me all these horrific things and it doesn't feel worth the risk to not do what they say.
I've started making wax melts at home to sell, the distraction has been helping but as soon as I sit down or try the sleep everything goes into overdrive.
It's hard to ignore when this time of year is so full of triggers. In the past I worked hard to try and create positive memories for the run up to Christmas and Christmas itself (although life often seems to want to kick me when I'm down) but this year I'm avoiding talking about Christmas or wanting to do anything related unless I have to. I have no energy for it. It hurts.
Thank you for replying Jenna xx