why bother?! - Page 37

Pi.R^2 · 01-10-2021, 01:18 PM

I hope you have a nice lunch today!

Have you said that your cousins being there is making you not want to go for Christmas? Even if they don't believe you about specific incidents, hopefully that would help them see that you're serious about not wanting to be around them?

Darkwings44 · 02-10-2021, 05:54 PM

i actully sort of did!

no... cause that would ruin their time......

Darkwings44 · 03-10-2021, 07:18 PM

im going back to the dayhab tomorrow

Pi.R^2 · 04-10-2021, 09:55 AM

But it sounds like your cousins being there would ruin your time and you matter too!

I'm glad you had a nice enough time when out for lunch and I hope it goes well at the dayhab today.

Darkwings44 · 05-10-2021, 09:48 PM

thank you for your kindness!......but youre wrong i dont matter at all......

thank you <3

Darkwings44 · 13-10-2021, 11:28 PM

i just found out that im not invited over my moms house for thanksgiving....... i really dont know how i feel about it.........

Darkwings44 · 15-10-2021, 12:49 AM

the world feels like theres no way out! no way out of the pain!! all the suffering!!! all of the hate!!!!!!!! i wanna die!!!!!!!!! i wanna go so badly!!!!!!!!! but i cant!!!!!!!!!!

Darkwings44 · 19-10-2021, 11:59 PM

I really don’t know how to say this IRL but it’s the truth…….. I really do derseve to be hurt

Darkwings44 · 21-10-2021, 11:41 PM

im applying for a job at a bookstore!!!

Elmer · 22-10-2021, 09:07 AM

It sounds like it’s been a rollercoaster ride for you recently.

I’m glad you’re looking for things to fill your time, are the staff or your therapist supporting you applying for a job?

Iamcatbug · 22-10-2021, 05:11 PM

I mean this with absolutely no disrespect at all, but, are you in the headspace mentally and emotionally to deal with having a job that will require you to be reliable and dealing with the general public?

Darkwings44 · 23-10-2021, 06:56 PM

no...not emotionally... but i can still try...

Darkwings44 · 23-10-2021, 07:30 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Elmer

It sounds like it’s been a rollercoaster ride for you recently.

I’m glad you’re looking for things to fill your time, are the staff or your therapist supporting you applying for a job?

yeah.... it really has been....

yeah i told the boss at the group home and hes going to help me fill out the thing online i emailed my therapist but she hasnt said anything about it yet....

Pomegranate · 24-10-2021, 03:17 AM

I think it’s great that you’re looking at things to increase your independence and socialisation skills etc!

Maybe volunteering for a few hours a week would be a good place to start? There are several charities that support people with work schemes etc.

How many hours is the book store job for? Will you have support whilst you are working?

Darkwings44 · 25-10-2021, 11:00 PM

i didnt get the job!!!!!!!

not_so_insig · 26-10-2021, 03:46 AM

Very few people get their first job they apply for. Try not to let it knock you back and keep on applying for more jobs if that's what you want.

What do you think of Pomegranate's idea of volunteering? It would look good on your resume. Volunteering shows that you can turn up on time, take orders and work as part of a team amongst other things - all qualities an employer is looking for.

Auror. · 26-10-2021, 04:37 AM

Also agree with the volunteering idea - you may also ask your group home or therapist if there are any services you are eligible for that help with employment. Often there are services that help people with disabilities find and keep employment.

Darkwings44 · 26-10-2021, 09:25 PM

i'll try asking the boss of the group home its a great idea

i really really want to die!!!!!!!!!! today at the dayhab they (the staff) were asking a guy if he was gay (because he likes to steal womans stuff) and he said no and i wanted to ask him if he was transgendered and so i ask one of the staff if i could ask him that and she said no and she told me that being gay is wrong and then told me that if you are gay then you have sinned and will have your eyes burned inside out with fire in hell then she said that was the truth... and then atfer a while they (the staff) told the guy to go to me and then told me i could ask the guy only if i answered his qestion afterwards and so i knew that i was being set up so i asked him a different qestion and they stoped him from andswering and told me to ask him if he was trans and i did and he didnt know what that was and they told him that that ment being gay and i was like no that doesnt being trans means feeling like the opposite gender on the inside and then he said no so i said ok then they told him to ask me if i was gay and i told him yes then everyone laughed at me then they asked the guy "is being gay right?" he said "no its not" and they praised him then while i was leaveing i calmly told the lady "you sound alot like my dad" then just when the van was about to leave she comes and asks me how did she sounded like my dad and i calmly told her the words and than she tells me that everything that my dad said was right........

Pomegranate · 27-10-2021, 03:09 AM

Dark wings, that account does not sound ethical at all! When do you next see your social worker?

[Luna] · 30-10-2021, 11:54 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Darkwings44

i'll try asking the boss of the group home its a great idea

i really really want to die!!!!!!!!!! today at the dayhab they (the staff) were asking a guy if he was gay (because he likes to steal womans stuff) and he said no and i wanted to ask him if he was transgendered and so i ask one of the staff if i could ask him that and she said no and she told me that being gay is wrong and then told me that if you are gay then you have sinned and will have your eyes burned inside out with fire in hell then she said that was the truth... and then atfer a while they (the staff) told the guy to go to me and then told me i could ask the guy only if i answered his qestion afterwards and so i knew that i was being set up so i asked him a different qestion and they stoped him from andswering and told me to ask him if he was trans and i did and he didnt know what that was and they told him that that ment being gay and i was like no that doesnt being trans means feeling like the opposite gender on the inside and then he said no so i said ok then they told him to ask me if i was gay and i told him yes then everyone laughed at me then they asked the guy "is being gay right?" he said "no its not" and they praised him then while i was leaveing i calmly told the lady "you sound alot like my dad" then just when the van was about to leave she comes and asks me how did she sounded like my dad and i calmly told her the words and than she tells me that everything that my dad said was right........

What the hell? This is 50 shades of wrong.
Being gay is not wrong and you won't go to hell.