i ODed again. and my stomach's been churning since.
*..life in pain.. *-my older sis; Sweetest Downfall-my jellybean; greenspot-my cousin; TokioPanik!-my TokioHotelTwin; darkdestiny-my pet monkey; I-Feel-Infinate-my gerbil; frombullets2black-my llama; livingnotbreathing-my fellow spy; UnsureOne-my pet goldfish; xXxHis_fallen_angelxXx-my pet monkey; ashy_ashy18-my sister; Aryn is my fellow ninja and partner in crime
Apocalyptic and insane, but my dreams will never change
"People have abused you lots in the past? Why do you then abuse yourself more?" - Quote
Sometimes I feel like I'm alone, Sometimes I feel like I'm not that strong, Sometimes I feel nothing at all, Sometimes I feel vulnerable, Sometimes I feel a little fragile
everyone thinks im doing ok..but im not
im lying to everyone. making everyone think im getting better
noone knows the truth..how bad things are atm
i just want to sleep and never wake up
I haven't been eating...but no one seems to care
and I've cheated on my boyfriend omg, how horrible!!!!!
"Without innocence the cross is only iron, hope is only an illusion and Ocean Soul's nothing but a name.
The child bless thee and keep thee forever..."
The place you brought me to to help me have a better life might just end up killing me soon. You are a great person and deserve so much more than me. I love you lots and im sorry.
I miss you, i wish i could take it all away for you, you should have something so much better and I appreciate what you have done for me so much.
You were both great friends and there for me even if a little judgemental sometimes. I am so grateful you never gave up on me when I needed you most.
See I cannot feel this, not matter how you try and in the real world, there's no goodbyes.
im seeing a married man, im lying to all my friends, im lying to myself.....but idont want to be stopped.....maybe now no-one will care enough to notice if im breathing or not
It's killing me too
It's so wrong not to be with you
It's getting harder to stay awake It's killing me too
It stops my heart just to be with you
So listen cause you are the only one who cares to hear
“The good things don’t always soften the bad, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.”
“Nobody important? Blimey, that’s amazing. Do you know, in nine hundred years of time and space I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important before.”
“If it’s time to go, remember what you’re leaving. Remember the best. My friends have always been the best of me.”
im so sick of you thinking this is about you
"for coming so close to breaking your trust too many times" no...you didnt come close...you broke it.
thats the reason you dont know much of the truth.
some best friend
I'm abusing laxatives again, going back into the old cycle, and I cant tell anyone. I dont want help. I dont want to stop or be stopped.
*hugs ally* you know its really not worth it baby. i know you dont wanna stop, believe me i do but please try to take care? <3
that said... if i had money and wasnt at home i'd be doing the same thing =\ and i almost used the money i got for my friend's grad gift to buy things... ><
“The good things don’t always soften the bad, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.”
“Nobody important? Blimey, that’s amazing. Do you know, in nine hundred years of time and space I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important before.”
“If it’s time to go, remember what you’re leaving. Remember the best. My friends have always been the best of me.”
you meant the world to me, but our friendship is over. it has been since you started treating me like this, because i no longer could turn to you or trust you, and that killed our friendship. and i hate saying this, but i have to... just get over me, cuz i'm over you.
*..life in pain.. *-my older sis; Sweetest Downfall-my jellybean; greenspot-my cousin; TokioPanik!-my TokioHotelTwin; darkdestiny-my pet monkey; I-Feel-Infinate-my gerbil; frombullets2black-my llama; livingnotbreathing-my fellow spy; UnsureOne-my pet goldfish; xXxHis_fallen_angelxXx-my pet monkey; ashy_ashy18-my sister; Aryn is my fellow ninja and partner in crime
Apocalyptic and insane, but my dreams will never change
None of you desreve this!! Really want to take away all your pain(s)!!
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I dont want to fight anymore...I really, really dont want to!!
"People have abused you lots in the past? Why do you then abuse yourself more?" - Quote
Sometimes I feel like I'm alone, Sometimes I feel like I'm not that strong, Sometimes I feel nothing at all, Sometimes I feel vulnerable, Sometimes I feel a little fragile
