Yup. It's their 19th birthday. :D
I remember when i was celebrating their 18th. Haha.
Sneaky peak for le fic: The twins birthday is included and it's thier 19th birthday, so if you have been paying attention to le fic - you will know what that means.
DILLIGAF
"it’s when you’re acting selflessly, that you are at your bravest"
- Four.
♥
Chapter 313
Frank waited a few minutes before following his fiancé upstairs. He stood in the doorway and stared at Gerard who was lying on his back staring at the ceiling. He didn't look particularly hurt or angry which was a good sign, but his expression was blank and now that his eyes were permanently red, Frank could no longer use them as a guide to how the older man was feeling.
“Gee, are you angry?”
Gerard didn't speak, just shook his head and continued staring at the ceiling, letting an audible sigh escape from his throat.
“Hurt, sad, pissed off?”
“No Frankie, just drop it.”
Frank walked over to the other teen and sat down next to him, before deciding to climb over him and lie down instead,
“I'm worried about you Gee. I know you still get scared about me and Tom but nothing happened okay?”
“I know Frankie, it's just hard y'know? I'm so scared of losing you and sometimes I'm scared that you'll find someone better.”
“Gee, I'm not going anywhere, I love you too much to leave you and there is no one better out there. You're perfect to me. How can I find someone who's better than perfect? It's impossible.”
Gerard sniffed slightly and turned on his side to face the younger man, reaching out to stroke the side of his face lovingly,
“You're amazing Frankie, I don't know what I'd do without you.”
“You don't have to worry about what you'll do because I'm staying right here. Forever.”
He reached over and brushed Gerard's tears away with his thumb before placing a small kiss on the older man's lips. They were interrupted by a loud cry from the next room and Frank moved to go and see to it. Gerard grabbed his arm gently,
“No Frankie, you've had to look after him all day, I'll go and see to him.”
Frank thanked him and watched as he left the room. The door closed and Frank rolled onto his back, resuming the same position Gerard had been in minutes earlier. He'd kissed Tom, Tom had started it but he'd asked for it to go on and if Tom hadn't backed off, he didn't know how much further things would've gone and if they had gone further, Gerard would surely have found them. Frank screwed his eyes shut, trying to make sense of the thoughts swirling around his head over and over again. He thought about how scared Gerard had been and felt the guilt surge through him. He felt worse than he had when he'd slept with Tom, maybe because he'd just blatantly lied about what had happened. He just had to hope Tom didn't say anything, even if he did have a boyfriend to worry about.
Gerard settled Jaidon down and placed him back in the crib before heading back towards his own room. Part of him didn't quite believe nothing had gone on that afternoon but he felt guilty because Frank was his fiancé and he should trust him, especially after they'd both agreed to put the past behind them. He stopped outside the door and thought about everything. The new baby being born would give them a clean slate, a chance to start over and Gerard knew at that point that even if something had happened, he'd forgive Frank because he loved him too much to let him go. He pushed the door open and looked over at Frank, taking in the confused looks on his fiancés face,
“Frankie, what's wrong?”
Frank looked a little startled and sat up quickly,
“Nothing Gee, just thinking about things. That's all.”
“Okay, I'm gonna go get coffee. Do you want any?”
Frank nodded and got up to follow the older man downstairs and into the kitchen. He sat down at the table and watched Gerard, the guilt was still there but he had to deal with it. Gerard put the coffee machine on and took a seat opposite Frank while they waited for it,
“Gee, maybe we should go somewhere tomorrow y'know, just you, me and Jaidon.”
“What do you mean?”
“I don't know, like a day away from here or something.”
“Frank, as much as I'd love to we can't.”
“Why?”
“It's Bill and Toms birthday tomorrow remember. And it's not just any birthday, it's their 19th. You know how big 19th birthdays are for us.”
Frank nodded and rested his head on his hands.
“I promise we'll go somewhere at the weekend okay?”
“Okay Gee.”
Gerard looked at the clock, realising just how late it was now.
“Maybe we should leave the coffee Frankie, it's already pretty late.”
Frank nodded and headed back upstairs while Gerard locked everything up downstairs. Frank wandered into their room and shed his clothes before crawling under the covers to get comfortable. He didn't want to have to spend the day with the twins tomorrow. He was glad they'd made p with Gerard but he didn't fancy spending the whole day trying to avoid Tom and the awkwardness of earlier. He closed his eyes and fell into an uneasy sleep.
Chapter 314 Tom decided on not going home, but going straight to his boyfriends house. He didn’t know why, but he needed to be with Jonny. He needed the comfort. He quickly sent his twin a message while he was walking, explaining that he was staying at Jonnys and will see him in the morning for their birthday but of course, he left out the details of the afternoon with Frank. Bill didn’t need to know what happened either. No-one did. He sent the message, and placed the small device back into his large pocket and shoved his hands in the pockets and carried on walking.
It didn’t take him long to get to Jonnys house, and he quickly found himself walking up the paved path and knocking on the door. Within minutes the door swung open and instead Jonny was standing in the doorway beaming.
"Hey" smiled Jonny pulling Tom into a tight hug.
"Hey" laughed Tom, he hoped Jonny couldn’t sense the nervousness in his laugh. He didn’t want questions being asked.
"Come in!" said Jonny as they pulled apart from the hug, and he pulled his boyfriend inside the small house, shutting the painted door behind them. Jonny pulled Tom into the living room and they sat themselves down on the small cozy sofa and Jonny automatically snuggled upto his boyfriend. "I’ve missed you"
"I’ve missed you too" replied the dreadlocked teen.
Jonny smiled and placed a gently kiss on Toms lips. Tom loved Jonnys kisses, they were breathtaking. He could never get bored of them, ever.
An hour later the two boys found themselves watching a movie, popcorn in hand – with Jonny eating most of it, Tom claiming he wasn’t hungry, of course he was though – but popcorn wouldn’t cure it. He needed food, he needed to feed. He’d do that tomorrow though. He could wait. It’s not like it would kill him not to eat.
Tom smiled as his boyfriend kept giggling as his eyes were fixed on the images on the screen. He was so happy when he was with Jonny, but yet the guilt was still flowing through his veins and it was driving him crazy. He couldn’t stop thinking about what happened with Frank, as much as he wanted to forget it, he couldn’t. he had to though. He had to find a way, he just has too.
Tom noticed his boyfriend yawn as the final credits rolled across the screen signaling the end of the film. Tom grabbed the remote and turned the movie off.
"Come on let’s get to bed" said Tom turning off the TV and turning to his boyfriend.
Jonny got up and rubbed his eyes, nodding. "Good idea." He said standing up "Plus you need your sleep, it’s your birthday tomorrow, you need all the energy you can get"
Tom smiled "True" he got up and followed Jonny out of the room, turning off the light as they exited and went up the stairs and Tom followed his boyfriend to the bedroom. The slid out of their clothes and walked over to the large double bed, both boys in their matching tight black boxers. The two of them slid into the bed and pulled the warm comforter over them, Jonny automatically snuggling upto his boyfriend and placing his head on Toms firm chest and smiled contently as he listened to the gentle beating of his boyfriends heart.
"Are you coming home with me tomorrow?" asked Tom stroking his boyfriends soft hair.
"I don’t know" whispered Jonny, with his eyes closed.
"Please? You’ll get to meet everyone and plus, it’ll mean so much to me if your with me?" said Tom turning his head to face his boyfriend.
Jonny waited a few minutes before answering. "Ok" he said after a while "For you"
"Thank you" smiled Tom "Night"
"Night" came the sleepy reply from the other male.
Both boys fell asleep in each others warm arms, both with smiles on their faces.
Morning came too quickly and soon the two boys were awoken with the sun shining through the window and onto their faces. Tom covered his eyes to block out the sunlight and turned to his boyfriend, to see him with his eyes open.
"Happy Birthday" came the reply of the other man when Tom turned to face him. Jonny placed a light kiss on Toms lips before Tom could have any chance to reply.
"Thank you" smiled Tom "How long have you been awake?"
"Around half an hour" beamed Jonny, not caring the sunlight the was shining into the room and letting the bright light bounce off the walls.
"Why didn’t you wake me?"
"I like to watch you sleep" giggled Jonny placing another kiss on Toms lips "Now get up birthday boy"
Tom laughed as Jonny bounced out of the warm bed and ran over to the closet and grabbed some fresh clothes out and pulling them on "Get dressed!" said Jonny as he walked to the door.
Tom rolled his eyes and got up out of the bed and walked over to wear he kept a spare change of clothes. He slid them on and placed his hat on and walked out the room, fixing his dreads as he did so.
He walked down the stairs and headed into the kitchen to find Jonny sitting there with breakfast ready with his hair styled and Kohl scribbled neatly around his eyes.
"Birthday breakfast!" beamed Jonny as he pulled two plates out of the over head cupboard.
"Wow you didn’t have too" said Tom as he looked at the large breakfast in front of him.
"I know but I wanted too" replied Jonny as he placed the plates down and sat down at the wooden table, and Tom pulled out a chair and sat down next to him.
"Thank you" smiled Tom as he began pilling his plate full of food.
The two boys ate quickly and soon Jonny was placing the dishes into the dishwasher and turning it on.
"Shall we head over to yours now?" suggested Jonny grabbing a jacket from the back of his chair and pulled it on.
Tom nodded "Sure" he said pulling on his own jacket, making sure he had everything.
They headed out the front door and Tom waited as Jonny locked up and they linked their hands and began the short walk to the Kaulitz house.
DILLIGAF
"it’s when you’re acting selflessly, that you are at your bravest"
- Four.
♥
Chapter 315
Frank opened his eyes and turned over, expecting to be in Gerard's arms but was instead greeted by an empty space where his fiancé should have been lying. He ran a hand through his hair and rubbed his eyes before thinking hard. He'd dreamt that he'd told Gerard the truth and Gerard had left. Now, waking up to an empty space, he was starting to wonder if it really was a dream or if it had actually happened. He slid out of bed and grabbed the discarded Jeans from the night before, not caring about a tee, just wanting to find Gerard. He ran down the stairs as quickly as he could. He ran into the kitchen, straight into Gerard.
“Whoa Frankie! What's the hurry?”
Frank looked up at Gerard, his face distorted because of the tears threatening to spill before diving into the older man's arms and holding him tightly,
“Oh my god Gee, I had a dream that you left me and then I woke up and you were gone and I thought you really had left.”
“Shh Frankie it's okay. I'd never leave you. No matter what happens I'll always be here.”
Frank sniffled and buried his face in Gerard neck while clutching his tee tightly. Gerard rubbed the younger man's back comfortingly, trying to calm him down.
“Frankie, I need to go and get Jaidon. I'll be two minutes.”
Frank nodded and slumped down onto the couch while Gerard went upstairs. Frank sat there, staring straight ahead. The guilt was driving him crazy and a big part of him wanted to tell Gerard just to stop the guilt from plaguing him but he knew that wouldn't work and even if Gerard forgave him, it would probably damage the group for good. He heard Gerard returning down the stairs and struggled to regain a slightly normal look on his face, anything to hide the guilt that was probably showing.
Gerard wandered into the room and handed their son to Frank before sitting next to him. He watched as Frank cuddled the small baby before placing him on the floor and sitting back. Gerard noticed how out of character he seemed and guessed that the pregnancy really was starting to take it's toll on him.
“Frankie, you need to go and get ready, I rang Bill this morning and told him we'd be around by 2.”
“But Gee I really don't feel like going.”
“Why? I thought you wanted the group to be back together.”
“I do...it's just...I'm really tired Gee.”
“I know Frankie. It's just one day okay?
“Are we staying late?”
“Well, we need to go and feed tonight. Don't look at me like that Frank, you know it's easier when we do it in a bigger group and anyway, it's important for you and the baby.”
“But what about Jaidon? We can't take him with us.”
“The babies are staying with our parents. While we go, we've told them we'll be out celebrating the twins birthday. We're dropping them off about 10ish.”
Frank nodded slowly and got up, heading upstairs he headed straight to the bathroom and shed his clothes. He turned the on the water and stepped in, letting the water run down over his body and it relaxed him slightly as if the water was washing away the guilt. He knew it wouldn't last but it was nice to lose the feeling for a little while. When he was done, he grabbed a towel and dried himself off before heading into the bedroom and picking out one of the many new outfits he still hadn't worn. He sorted his hair out and carefully applied eye-liner around his eyes because he wanted to make the effort. Not for Gerard, not for Tom but for himself. When he was happy with his appearance he headed downstairs to where Gerard was waiting and noticed his jaw drop when he saw him,
“Wow Frankie, you look amazing.”
Frank blushed slightly and smiled
“Thanks Gee. I wanted to make an effort, y'know.”
“Frankie, you don't need to, you're gorgeous anyway but if it makes you feel better then that's fine with me.”
Frank grinned and picked Jaidon up while Gerard grabbed the car keys and they both headed out to the car.
A few minutes later, the stopped outside the twins home. There were already a couple of cars outside, indicating the rest of the group were already here. Gerard looked over at Frank and noticed how pale he looked,
“You feeling okay Frankie?”
“Yeah just a bit sick.”
“Aww, another few months and it'll all be over.”
Frank nodded, slightly relieved at the fact he could use his pregnancy to cover the real reason behind his erratic mood swings. They both exited the car and after getting Jaidon out of his car seat, they headed up the path and knocked on the door. A few seconds later, the door swung open, revealing the older twin. Gerard gave him a quick hug, saying happy birthday before stepping inside, leaving Frank and Tom alone,
“Uh, happy birthday.”
“Thanks Frank.”
“I uh...I'd y'know...hug you but I've got Jaidon.”
“No it's cool, don't worry.”
The older twin stepped aside so Frank could walk in. Frank wandered into the lounge, greeting the other twin and the rest of the group, before seating himself next to Gerard.
