Keep in there Steel Maiden sorry for the late reply!
I'm unsure what to say right now, just make sure you're safe, tell the woman in the black dress from me, to completely f. off and from everyone else on RYL.
Lots of love
* holds you tight and takes you away from any dark places*
Hannah
<3
xxxxxxx
*tells Woman to f off*
She's sitting on the floor behind my desk right now, singing something in a quiet voice. However what she is singing about is not good.
I can't tell my Mother about her, because she said that if I tell my Mother, she will kill both my parents. If my Mother finds out about her, I will die.
Thank you for your ongoing support.
My formteacher (who I e-mailed about this, in desperation) e-mailed me back to say he was calling the Home Treatment Team about my e-mail, but I don't know any more than that.
I'm scared.
I'm very, very scared.
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
The HTT knowing is a good thing right? Well done for emailing your form tutor, that was a very brave thing to do. Keep telling her to F Off, for all of us. Sorry I haven't got any good advice, just wanted you to know that I'm here to listen if you need it xxx
Its ok it is hard to give advice for such things as this b**** Woman.
The HTT knowing can be a good thing, but they could either do nothing about it whatsoever, or they could tell my Mother (which would mean that the Woman would kill my parents), or they could take action?
I don't know...
Thanks.
I'm going to have 2 physics exams on Wednesday, three hours of exam. Agh.
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
I'm so proud of you for sending that email!
It was the right thing to do <3
whatever the team choose to do is for the safety of you & everyone around you.
I love you, hold on
xxx
That's a lovely smilie.
I love you all too for helping me.
I've heard nothing from nobody (formteacher, HTT etc) so far.
I'm going to go out and walk. I'm going to walk for friggin ages and I don't know where I'll go but I need to get out of this house before I do something stupid.
I know that the Woman will follow me for the whole walk, but I will not have anything on me that I could kill someone with, not even my keys, so she won't make me hurt anyone...Unless she makes me use my physical strength, of which I possess a lot of.
The Woman is laughing at me, she's standing right next to me. She says she has my future mapped out. She keeps mentioning Death Angels, but she isn't being specific enough, so I am confused.
Thanks.
x
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
I'm so happy your going out before your even more unsafe.
That shows you have control over this women, you can beat her! Tell her to leave you alone. You laugh at her for being so stupid, because your stronger than her & you aren't goign to listen to her anymore.
Be safe,
xxx
You are doing really well. I hope the HTT come tonight. I agree with Hidden Pain, the Woman can't hurt you, i know she's scary but you are fighting her well. good luck hun, keep us updated.
"I gave up yesterday but they still want more"
"if you say this life ain't good enough, I would give my world to lift you up"
I was listening to music on my walk, but half way through she blocked my music and all I could hear was her. She said that she will make me kill after my exams, and then she will kill me and make me a Death Angel so I can carry out her tasks for her. So I am destined to become a Death Angel.
Fear has gone and despair has arrived.
Olanzapine over 2 hours ago and I'm not sleepy. I want to take the whole packet.
I am so sorry that I can't be a good person.
I wish that I could find the right weapon to destroy the Woman with. Last time I threw scissors at her face and it just bounced off her without a mark.
The HTT haven't called or come to my house. Looks like they chose the option "do nothing".
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
I'm so sorry they're not doing anything, I really hope they'll do something tommorow for you. You are a good person sweety, you are. You aren't agreeing with here, you're trying to fight her, you're trying to get rid of her, all of that shows what a good person you are. She's the evil one here, not you sweety. Can you get hold of the HTT? Or try your Form Tutor again? Tell them about what she's said? *Hugs* I really hope you're okay sweety xxx
I e-mailed my form tutor again and he replied, but nothing about the HTT. I'm going to e-mail him again and ask him what the HTT said.
I see the HTT every 3 days and the next one is tomorrow. I hope I can survive until then...
I tore a piece of my skin off in anger...its painful, but its ok.
Thanks for the hug and kindness, you really keep me going.
I'll e-mail my form tutor right now.
x
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
The HTT are supposed to call me today...*is scared*
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
I hope they do call. Good luck sweety, try and get everything you need to out, everything you've told us that she's said. How is your arm sweety? I really really hope it goes okay for you xxx
My arm is not badly hurt, I only took off a superifical layer and the wound isn't very big.
I will tell them everything. They haven't called yet, I am supposing I will have to wait until tomorrow evening. I will be going to school tomorrow, which is good because I will have more distractions, but bad because I have a physics exam and the presence of too many people around freaks me out.
I want to cut.
But I can't.
Because if my Mother finds out, the Woman will kill both my parents.
So I guess I will have to do something that will look like an accident...I don't really know...
Thanks amialone. I also like your avatar, a lot.
x
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
Sweety, if you can, try not to harm. I know it's hard, but it's not the answer. Will you be able to see your Tutor at school tommorow? Has he been a help for you? I really hope he has. I'm sorry they haven't called, I hope they do soon. Thank you!
xxx
Thanks Rebecca, thank you.
I had the urge to cut, now I have the urge to drink. When I say drink, I mean vodka. We have at least two pints of vodka downstairs and I guess I could easily down half of it.
Physics exam tomorrow...sh*t.
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
Argh F*ck. Damn Bloody Sh*t.
Arrrrrrghhhhhhhhhhhh WHY did I do this????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
I stabbed myself with a needle. It went in deep. I did it in a flash of rage at the Woman. She is doing my head in. I would do anything, ANYTHING, for her to go away. I'm being driven crazy by her. She is ruining my life! I can't live like this any more. I can't carry on. The HTT haven't called and I don't think they will, because they don't care. They don't give half a damn if I live or die.
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
Thank you! 
