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Possibly Triggering - 2 and a half months!
Hi everyone
Just wanted to say.......
I have been out of hospital for 2 and a half months now, I havnt cut since Iv been in hospital, I feel like a totally different person! I have dealt with many issues and my ED is gettin better to. I still have bad days with my eating and my weight is still up and down but not as bad as it used to be. I still get urges. But being in hospital is a totally different world, I saw things in there that made me think, I saw things no one should have to see, saw people who were in a much worse state than me.
Im happily getting on with my life now, just me and my lil girl! Im seeing someone else who has been my bessie mate for 6 years and he wants to help me get better, where as my ex was my biggest trigger! Being in hospital away from my daughter was the worst time of my life, it was so hard speaking to her on the phone everyday, just wanting to cuddle her, but now Iv got her back and Im back in control of things. I have a clearer view of the future and finally started being the mum my daughter needs, she might have mild Autism (needs to be assesed) so she really needs her Mam, and Im here for her. Its made me realise, I HAVE TO recover to help my daughter through this be there and be a good Mum!
I have also been asked to join a model agency! I had a shoot with the owner of the agency on Saturday and he asked me to join! Another reason i must stay in control of things!
3 Months ago I never thought Id be happy again, or achieve anything or even have my daughter with me, things got that bad. New years day I was taken to A n E then few weeks later I was in a mental hospital! It goes to show that you can do it! just believe you can do it, be strong, keep fighting and things will slowly start getting better!
Tinks x x
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