Graphic - Help... fixated

[CstarL]

I do not currently use SH but, I am mentally fixated on it. SH fills most of my thinking. I think about SH more then I think about anything else. I am reaching out to others who are in this situation or have been in it. Is this a dangerous place to be in my recovery? I do not know how long it has been since I last used SH, but, I wonder if this is why I am so fixated on it. I want my life to be centered on more than SH thoughts. SH used to be a way for me to release my anger. I no longer have this intense anger so I do not have a need to use SH. I do not understand I am mentally fixated on it. Will I have this fixation for the rest of my life? Is there a way I can lose this fixation?

[imperfectly_me]

I think it would be best for you to avoid all SH threads and forums. Try thinking of things that make you happy and why you quit SH. Try to fixtate your mind on whatever it is your doing and don't let any other thoughts in.


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[Patent Pending]

When people stop any addiction their brain tends to go back to it; usually in times of need but sometimes just out of the blue. I used to be like you; fixated on SH (and suicide) and my brain would think of little else. Now though, apart from being annoyed my scars are so obvious I don't really think about doing it any more...so no, I don't think you'll always be like this.

It may help for you to avoid SH forums etc until you feel more stable in your fight against SH...however with me it went from seeking help to offering support and that helped me keep fighting.

It sounds like you need to replace SH with something - so when your brain wanders to it you have plans in place of what you can do/where you can go/who you can talk to. After a while these things should replace SH as the first thing your brain goes to.

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[talaiporia]

Hi there. It might be worth reading the Self Harm Information Package, in the self injury discussion forum. Have you ever told anyone about your self harm?

[PassedExpectations]

do you have anything else to think about and fill your mind and time? i get much more SH centered thoughts when i'm bored and unoccupied...