What help did you receive back when you were younger? What was it that helped with your eating disorders?
If you're still struggling with them you really need to go back Ashlee. Also while you're there you can mention your self harm - two birds with one stone yes? You can go the doctors by yourself or tell a teacher/school nurse if you don't feel comfortable telling your parents. They will get you in touch again with the right people.
Edit: Maybe you could ask the teacher that knows if she can refer you to somebody? You could also specifically ask her not to mention anything to other teachers. You have the right to confidentiality.
Oh wow Ashlee, well done for that really long and thought out answer further up!
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
Who do you live with? Do you have a good relationship with them? Do they know you hurt yourself? What did the teacher do when she heard that you cut yourself?
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Ashlee, perhaps start talking about your feelings surrounding Sean and then tell the teacher about cutting yourself?
what do u mean exacly
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
Also, the fact that you had treatment should be on your medical notes, so if you go back to your GP, they would be able to know who to refer you back to.
How can the light that burned so brightly
Suddenly burn so pale?
Also, I may be out of line here but I'm not sure how much I believe you were diagnosed with anorexia, bulimia, and pica at age 6.
1) How did you learn to purge/exercise?
2) This would make you one of the youngest people in the country. A rarity.
3) You wouldn't be diagnosed with anorexia and bulimia together - especially at that age.
Also, I may be out of line here but I'm not sure how much I believe you were diagnosed with anorexia, bulimia, and pica at age 6.
1) How did you learn to purge/exercise?
2) This would make you one of the youngest people in the country. A rarity.
3) You wouldn't be diagnosed with anorexia and bulimia together - especially at that age.
Seems a bit iffy to me.
it was bits of all 3 not compleatly all 3
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
Also, I may be out of line here but I'm not sure how much I believe you were diagnosed with anorexia, bulimia, and pica at age 6.
1) How did you learn to purge/exercise?
2) This would make you one of the youngest people in the country. A rarity.
3) You wouldn't be diagnosed with anorexia and bulimia together - especially at that age.
Seems a bit iffy to me.
I was thinking this too, especially point 3.
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You don't get diagnosed with 'bits' of disorders. You either have them or you don't.
Look....
In an older thread you said it was your GP who told you that you had anorexia and bulimia (no mention of pica there), and that you couldn't go and see him now because he's dead.
In this post you say you have a period of time that you can't remember and you don't know who diagnosed you.
In your other post you say that a teacher found out about your cutting and told your dad....
In this post you've said people are aware and aren't aware so many times I'm confused who does and doesn't know.
In your other thread you said your dad had tried to kill you.... You also said that you lived with your dad because he understood you, but when your teacher told him that you were cutting yourself he threw you out and sent you to your mum. You have also mentioned that your mum committed suicide. In this post you say that you live with your parent'S' - plural.
I, currently, am beyond confused. I have informed a moderator of these points as I am concerned.
I'm also contemplating whether it's worth calling your school and seeing if they can provide the support that we cannot. If you are, as you say you are, a 15 year old girl that is crying every day, cutting yourself, struggling with anorexia and bulimia, with a past that sounds incredibly difficult, with a heart problem (mentioned in your other post) and everything else you've talked about I am genuinely concerned about your welfare. You are in desperate need of some support and this forum isn't doing enough for you - and I think your safety is called into question and your wellbeing is definitely called into question. This also shows that people DO care about you because I wouldn't bother if I didn't care.
-“And the day came when the risk it took to remain tight inside the bud was more painful than the risk it took to bloom.” Anais Nin-
Allie, Mutt, Great Grandma, Hope and Humbug. I love you and miss you all. xx
You don't get diagnosed with 'bits' of disorders. You either have them or you don't.
Look....
In an older thread you said it was your GP who told you that you had anorexia and bulimia (no mention of pica there), and that you couldn't go and see him now because he's dead.
In this post you say you have a period of time that you can't remember and you don't know who diagnosed you.
In your other post you say that a teacher found out about your cutting and told your dad....
In this post you've said people are aware and aren't aware so many times I'm confused who does and doesn't know.
In your other thread you said your dad had tried to kill you.... You also said that you lived with your dad because he understood you, but when your teacher told him that you were cutting yourself he threw you out and sent you to your mum. You have also mentioned that your mum committed suicide. In this post you say that you live with your parent'S' - plural.
I, currently, am beyond confused. I have informed a moderator of these points as I am concerned.
I'm also contemplating whether it's worth calling your school and seeing if they can provide the support that we cannot. If you are, as you say you are, a 15 year old girl that is crying every day, cutting yourself, struggling with anorexia and bulimia, with a past that sounds incredibly difficult, with a heart problem (mentioned in your other post) and everything else you've talked about I am genuinely concerned about your welfare. You are in desperate need of some support and this forum isn't doing enough for you - and I think your safety is called into question and your wellbeing is definitely called into question. This also shows that people DO care about you because I wouldn't bother if I didn't care.
I know this is probably mean and assuming, but I don't really think all this is likely...
You don't get diagnosed with 'bits' of disorders. You either have them or you don't.
Look....
In an older thread you said it was your GP who told you that you had anorexia and bulimia (no mention of pica there), and that you couldn't go and see him now because he's dead.
In this post you say you have a period of time that you can't remember and you don't know who diagnosed you.
In your other post you say that a teacher found out about your cutting and told your dad....
In this post you've said people are aware and aren't aware so many times I'm confused who does and doesn't know.
In your other thread you said your dad had tried to kill you.... You also said that you lived with your dad because he understood you, but when your teacher told him that you were cutting yourself he threw you out and sent you to your mum. You have also mentioned that your mum committed suicide. In this post you say that you live with your parent'S' - plural.
I, currently, am beyond confused. I have informed a moderator of these points as I am concerned.
I'm also contemplating whether it's worth calling your school and seeing if they can provide the support that we cannot. If you are, as you say you are, a 15 year old girl that is crying every day, cutting yourself, struggling with anorexia and bulimia, with a past that sounds incredibly difficult, with a heart problem (mentioned in your other post) and everything else you've talked about I am genuinely concerned about your welfare. You are in desperate need of some support and this forum isn't doing enough for you - and I think your safety is called into question and your wellbeing is definitely called into question. This also shows that people DO care about you because I wouldn't bother if I didn't care.
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I really think you either need to take the advice given and use it in a constructive way or stop posting. You're hanging all your hopes of recovery on one person, which isn't healthy and is very unfair on that person and chances are you won't recover just because he's yours anyway, things like this don't go away.
I've been free from self harm for over 2 years and I still struggle with urges almost every day, it doesn't just switch off.
You need to talk to a professional or trusted adult.
I don't see what more you can be told that you haven't been told already.
You've been given so much support and help on this thread, that you've ignored most of. Many people would love to get this level of support and would actually use it.
What did your GP specifically tell you?
It would be very unprofessional of them to say you have 'bits' of 3 diagnoses...
thats not what they atually said but thats what my dad said
i could never undrestand what was said
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
I'm also contemplating whether it's worth calling your school and seeing if they can provide the support that we cannot. If you are, as you say you are, a 15 year old girl that is crying every day, cutting yourself, struggling with anorexia and bulimia, with a past that sounds incredibly difficult, with a heart problem (mentioned in your other post) and everything else you've talked about I am genuinely concerned about your welfare. You are in desperate need of some support and this forum isn't doing enough for you - and I think your safety is called into question and your wellbeing is definitely called into question. This also shows that people DO care about you because I wouldn't bother if I didn't care.
you cant do that as u dont know my real name, im one of them wired kids who hide behind a screan, when im with peopel i know, im acting, the only person that remotley know the real me is sean and even hes not that to sure
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
thats not what they atually said but thats what my dad said
i could never undrestand what was said
So your Dad diagnosed you?
I thought you don't live with your Dad because of the things that happened in the past?
Ashlee, can you please explain everything, truthfully, so we can have a good idea and really help you? I think we all stand by our previous advice that you need to talk to an adult though.
