Being Admitted to Maudsley.

[[Frostbitten]]

Thank you everyone xx Sorry for not updating/for bumping the thread

I'm on home leave at the moment. The past week has been nothing short of hell; I honestly can't figure out how the service has a good reputation. I've had multiple medication errors, there is no communication between staff/myself, things are recorded incorrectly all the time (my meal plan, for instance), I've been called aggressive by my primary nurse, and she has yet to really sit down and talk to me, and there are so many members of staff who obviously have given up caring and let people break the rules all the time.

I'm due back Monday afternoon, then have leave again next Sunday until Wednesday, but it is unlikely I'll return. I've become scared of the ward environment; the screaming lady is still losing it most mealtimes and nights to the point where I genuinely don't feel safe. My parents agree that it isn't a good place to be, and agree that I need to be out ASAP.

On the plus side, I've realised just how amazing my OP team are.

[xjessx]

Heya it sounds like the place does have alot of negative, but i would still challenge you to look for the positives... ive found with myself in such confronting situations as IP that i tend to focus on the negatives to the exclusion of all positives... You say ", I will more than likely go back to it, as I really don't have the motivation to stop myself." What about your study? it sounds like sometimes you talking and sometimes your ed talking.. i would challenge you to listen to your own reasoning if you can and think, if you leave asap will you be able to manage on your own? What plan do you have in place to be able to continue/start study? I know from experience you can study with an "active" ed but your study will be compromised.. so try as hard as you can to get the good out your admission because like someone else said beds are few and far between and even if its not where you feel you beling there will be many things to get out of the admission... also wanted to say weight doesnt determine how sick/in need of IP you are, your just as deserving/in need as everyone else, although i know it can be tough to believe. xx

[angeldevil123]

hugs to you, i hope it works out for you! focus on getting medical stablisation
sending you lots of hugs

[Uglyducklin]

Hi Frostbitten, Im so sorry things are so tough. I have been inpatient there a few years ago and Im now currently with their outpatients. I completely agree with you and I am disappointed to see that the unit hasnt changed much I found the inconsistencies very hard to deal with too. Could you talk to the dietician about how you dont feel ready to fully recover? Im sure if you discuss your concerns they may well support the idea. Sorry rambling. I think you are very brave.Please pm me if you want to chat. Sorry not to be much helpxx

[Sleepless123]

im sorry and sad this has been such a difficult and scary experience for you.i wish i had better words but i am thinking of you.im glad youve realised how good your OP team are though!

im also sorry to hear about your old teacher commiting suicide - that must have been hard to deal with too, especially when you are in such a hard place emotionally yourself and having to cope with so much.Have you been able to talk through your feelings with anyone about what happened there?

i feel this reply is a bit rubbish - wish i could say something better but please keep updating us.

How are things at the unit/home leave going now?Have you talked to your OP team about that you may self discharge and that things dont really seem to be working out?Do you think they may be able to consider other units if this is what yo0u want or do you think you would be better off in the community with your current team now anyway?

im really sorry the unit dont seem to understand about you not being ready to fully recover but wanting to lessen the impact of ED on your life as i personally think this is completely reasonable and a great first step at least - its better than not wanting recovery or anything positive at all and i would of hoped they would have supported it but what do i know hey?!im no expert like they are.It just seems a shame to me they dont understand.

Sending you my very best wishes for now.Keep in touch.

xx xx

[angeldevil123]

Remember only leave the unit until you are mentally and physicaly stable, if you find yourself slipping down please seek help from the nurses and support staff, they will be there for you.