Hii! I've read threads here for years& enjoyed the responses, but was mostly too shy to do more than lurk, but now, I really need some advice and don't know where to turn. I figured maybe someone has some tips on what to do.
So, a little bit of background. I've been self-injuring since I was 12. I'm currently at Uni far from home. I have a decent relationship with my parents, but I wouldn't say I'm close to them. I'm VERY guarded about personal things.
In high school, I was busted by the counselors, and my parents put me in therapy, but to be honest, I never really took it very seriously, and I certainly never stopped. That was always a really, really uncomfortable topic between us, and we never talked about it.
My parents think I stopped after a few months in therapy (more than four years ago now). Now things have gotten completely out of control. I met with the therapist I saw in high school over a break from Uni, and she told me I need to get treatment before I accidentally kill myself.
I've looked into treatment options, and found an inpatient facility in the U.S. that looks like a good fit. I think I'm finally ready to accept help and finally recover. The only problem, I'm on my parents' insurance, and as a student, I would need them to cover what insurance wouldn't. So in order to get the treatment I know I need, I would have to tell my parents that I'm still harming, and in fact, that I'm doing more poorly than ever before. I know they would be okay with paying, but I don't know how to bring up an upsetting topic that is now over 4 years old, for them at least. They'll be incredibly disappointed, and it'll put an awkward strain on our relationship.
tl;dr: Have a superficial but decent relationship with my parents, but don't know how to tell them that I need treatment again because it was always an extremely uncomfortable topic.
Anyone have any advice on what to do/how to go about bringing this back up without going into much detail about how bad things are?
