i need someone...someone to feel the same pain as i do how i'm living
a someone who won't lie or deceive me
someone who will care for me
and show me how to stand up to the pain
i wish that i could tell you everything but i can't, you could never understand.
our relationship would be through and i dont want to loose you not a freind. if only you could understand what im going through and how it really feels. but you never would you couldnt handle not ever
Why don't you help?! You know exactly what you can do, I've already told you so many times how you can help, so stop pretending you give a shtit. I hate you. I really, really hate you.
I miss you so much. I can't believe it's my fault 5 years of friendship is gone. Sorry.
Mhhmm. Lying cow sound familiar? Why do you always have to make a drama out of nothing at all and make you sound like some big hero? The good thing is no one believes you anymore.
U just called me stupid because I answered ur question and u made me feel like shit through a txt, y the hell am I still sayin sorry for wot i have said, y the hell am I still trying to be friendly??? If u knew how I really felt about u would hate me and I wouldnt be able to deal with that. I hate you so much it hurts me even to look at u yet I make the effort for those around me. Why cant I just be allowed to move on and hate u like I should... Its sooo not fair
I WILL FORGET THOSE THAT HAVE HURT ME
BUT I WILL NEVER FORGET THOSE WHO ARE ALWAYS THERE TO HELP ME
I wish you were here so much right now.
I love talking to you more than I'll ever be able to tell you.
I wish we could talk the way we have recently all the time.
You're just. You're amazing.
Thanks mum. 'I think you need to lose half a stone.' *looks at fat stomach* 'Maybe a stone.'
Really appreciate that.
When one door of happiness closes another one opens, but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one that has been opened for us.
why did my dad die and leave me
cos now no1 stops her
why did she want to hit me
i dont understand
i try and fight it and tell myself i didnt deserve the bruises or the nosebleeds but now shes suddenly stopped i feel like i deserve the pain
why do my relatives only see a teenager with attitude?
why does my best friend not understand?
i want to talk to you so much but i dont think ull undeerstand and im too scared to approach u.....just reach out to me. just notice me. i think you can help me. im getting worse i never realised it could be so addictive. please just reach out to me
u wer the only adult in my life to look at me
even the simple things
u talked to me and included me
i feel myself doin things to impress u
i want to do well at school to make u proud
the others look at me weirdly
they think i like u
but im just jelus of the way u talk to ur childre...y hav i been denied that
i hav this big imagination
wer u will look at me one day and realise
just ask me how i am
or see the marks
just ask
how are you today
and tell me the truth
make me tell
u
and then ud te me its not my fault
and ud stand up to her n take me away
ud hug me and tel me it was ok
i want you to know
and im sorry she cant hav childrren..sh seemed so happy about my results the other day i could have cried
she deserves a baby..y is it so many people give birth...hit ther kids scream in ther face and u...the person who carees so much is denid that
wen im in that room u 2 take m away
i feel like a normal person
because u want me to b included
i feel wanted..something i havnt felt in a while
and then u didnt reply to my text about the hospital and that hurt
it was only a simple message so now i feel like u dont want m ther after al
u wer the reason i didnt jump and now uv abandoned me like evryone els
thats it iv had it with you. you're supposed to love me but you've never said you do. your supposed to hold me tight and tell me its going to be ok but instead you just look at me with a blank face. if only you knew how i got these scars, if you knew about my past you would never of asked me to be with you. things i could never tell but i want to soo much. but you've had your chance and you blew it. i talk to myself half the time, like you give a shit thats it its over im done with you, i cant go on pretending making myself feel for you, theres nothing there not anymore you ledt it too long now iv had it with you.
You think it's easy being me? I don't choose this it chooses me. When you had it tough I ran round like crazy trying to help you and make you're life better. You don't want to even try and help me. I'm so cross. I'd never let you down but you seem hell bent on letting me down all the time. Why you f****r?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Play the game out
Amor Vincit Omnia
Dad 10/11/2008 Always our sunshine, I'm still playing for the town hall clock
I'm really not okay. I know that when you ask me I can smile and shrug it off but please I need you to look deeper because I don't trust myself to tell you, I know I won't.
Princess Alice, crazy, lazy and sweet
