Triggering (SI) - i'm sorry for failing again

xXMessedUpXx · 13-03-2009, 04:40 PM

i had to. but i shouldnt have. i'd gone for a few months now i mess it all up again,

i couldnt stop myself. it wasnt me. well it was but it didnt feel like it. it never does. its like im watching someone else so it. its like its not blood. just red lines. sorry.

i know i've messed up. i dont know what to do. its like in 10 years i havent changed. i'm still that scared child. stil the outcast. still blaming myself still hating myself. this is my fault,

im sorry this makes no sense

afraidtogetbackup · 13-03-2009, 06:41 PM

hey its okay to slip up...i know exactly how you feel... don't give up you can make it though... congrates for making it so long.

xXMessedUpXx · 13-03-2009, 06:54 PM

thx for the reply

i know its a slip up i just feel like its a massive one

i dont understand why im like this

foreverXanXaddict · 13-03-2009, 07:04 PM

im so sorry about how you're feeling about yourself. you're only human. its understandable you slip up. you will change and get better... when you're ready. PM if you ever need to talk.

~~Silver Wolf~~ · 13-03-2009, 07:44 PM

I'm sorry you are feeling so bad hunni. Slip ups are all a part of recovery though. Sometimes we have them often.
I can understand your feelings though. I just recently had a slip up also and am feeling the guilt and shame as well.
Do you have anyone that you can talk to? A friend/family member or someone professional? It could help.
PM me anytime if you need to talk

=)
*Hugs*

~~SW~~

Cazki · 14-03-2009, 12:31 AM

*Hugs* Im really sorry that you slipped up, i know its very upsetting when you slip up but please try not to beat yourself up as that will only make things worse. Well done for going so long without harming yourself though. Please be gentle with yourself. Slipping up is all part of recovery and it doesnt make you a failure and it certainly doesnt mean that you have failed.

You did really well to go so long without harming yourself, so please dont let this slip up stop you from recovering. Do you know what it was that caused you to slip up? Do you have any support? Are you able to talk to us about whats happening for you? Dont give up, stay strong, you will get through this. Make sure that you look after your cut/s so that they do not become infected. Keep safe, we are all here for you.

Take care all the best Ian

Katiee · 14-03-2009, 03:43 AM

Hun, it's alright it's just a slip up. You can get through this. *HUGS*
Just keep trying. We're always here for you. Take care. xx